Today was our debate competition... :D .. arent you excited?! xD Well, I wasnt. I was super nervous. Tummy was aching from last night. So, when I woke up today, the first thing i did was a SUM41 marathon. Going through all their songs in my phone. It somehow calms my nerves, coz I wasnt thinking of the debate at all. LOL.

Went to skul like normal la. After class, straight had discussion/practice at the library.. :D. Missed class as usual... -.- bUT lol.. whatever la...! xD.. And we were like mad there... Stummie Ache..!

Then it was time... And I noticed that mout austin had arrived... XD! I saw Mark. I laughed.. xD.. Dont ask me y.. Coz IDK.. SKIPPING!!

Then Draw Lots.. Mark drew the first lot.. And he got NEGATIVE which means we're AFFIRMATIVE!! :D!! yay yay! ... im excited got affirmative.. But Grace wanted Negative. W/e la! Then we entered the quarantine room.:D.. We took the one with the stage.. they took the other.. xD While we were in the QR, I was doing my evil thing.. I was peeping.. :) I know I know its wrong but I'm only human.. xD

The 1st speaker, Syafiq or shafiq or WHATEVER was looking blur.. hahaha! he was like staring aimlessly away, occasionally looking up at the reserve and at Mark.. hahah! I caught him YAWNING a few times and laughed hard at it..! I would roll on the floor and Laugh but it would have attract too much attention.. LOL! I mean... ROFL! xD..

2nd speaker was Mark Lee WR of course.. xD.. Well, what can I say of my observation of him.. Um, he was .. well, relaxed.. xD! He wasnt fretting, looking blur or panicky.. Could it be his poker face? or is he too confident? who knows? xD!

3rd speaker hehmaa.. LOl.. she was like Grace .. checking and writing and adding onto her palm cards.. :D lol, i'll repeat myself.. xD

reserved Jaqueline or w/e was lying down.. :D! i was following her and doing the same.. xD..

I helped out with Najihah oso OK! .. LOL... Anyways,when 1hour was gone, we were to make our way to the hall.. I was worrying for them u noe.. xD.. nothing bttr to do with my life ya know.. xD then, as Grace and jiha entered, saw this guy la.. I thought he was cute, then when i realised he reminded me of DLF, i lost my interest.. weird-how much i can hate one being... hahahahah!

Then, I took my seat behind Shira and her friends.. Tchr Sariyah sat beside me.. When, everyone had entered and the judges were ready, the debate started.. Nicole was the Chairperson again and Ghaffs was the Mr. Time Keeper.. LOL! :D

I would not write what exactly happened, and what my thought was.. LOL.. too sensetive... xD!! All was written down in my 'buku catatan' :D .. ANyways... when, the whole thing was done, the judges wen off to the Dewan to debate each other on who should win.. xD .. and we started sociallizing lorh.. xD

I went up to Hehmaa and I was like : you're Laliitha's sister rite?
And she : Ya! how do you know?!
Then, told her story... xD Then, we just chated la for a bit. The Daryl looking guy was occasionally looking,... ISH! stupid daryl looking guy! xD Ahmad Faiz his name... :D hahahaahahahah! Im such a stalker arent I? xD

Anyways, when the judges came back.. :D they gave their comments and announced out that the winner is :

AFFIRMATIVE :D = US!!

heheh! Grace won best speaker! Mark was like black... xD if you GAD what i mean.. xD!! :D was a happie day then.. really HAPPIE!!!

ANYWAYS! I'm super LAZY to write .. GDBYE

_sP_

I still love you, even if i dont seem to,
I still miss you, everytime i do wud i do,
I stiil want you, you're all ive been waiting for,
I still need you, more than ever before.

-an original-

_sP_

Theres already a number of people who asked me : "Why is your URL, wasbetrayed..?".. And at first, I had no intention in answering them. I didnt feel like its appropriate for me to tell them. The one who caused this wouldnt like it. Then, I thought back and realised, "Why do I care what she thinks?". So, here I am to tell you who are reading, why my URL is my URL. :). If you dont care to know my story, you can bring your arrow to the big red button with an "X" at the top far right or you could press backspace. Whatever suits you best. To those who are staying to read, I have nothing to say to you.

Though my story is gonna be mostly censored due to stuff, i rather not mention, I hope you guys can understand my situation. This story happened in the early months of 2009. I shall start now.

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Stephanie(me). She was slightly extroverted in church and had lots of super close friends who secrets she shared with. She told them, especially her best buddie since kids(we shall call her, "empty"), most of her secrets and trusted her a lot. This girl, Empty, has a boyfriend(call him "uragirimono" ) . Stephanie trusted him too. He was close with her, helped her when she had problems with her ex-bf, talked to her, and asked advice too. Stephanie didnt think this problem would happen at all.

One day, She told her DLS ((Dark[dirty] Little Secret)) to uragirimono thinking she could trust him with him. She gave him strict orders to NOT MENTION IT TO ANYONE. And he gave his word. He promised he wouldnt tell a soul. Steph breathed a sigh of relief, again trusting and believing him. However, a few weeks or days after that, she received a message from Empty. First, it was a normal conversation. But then, she asked her about it. SHe was like, " Dont get angry with Uragirimono but he told me that ____________ ". And at first Steph was kinda angry but got over it quickly. She thought that Empty should know about it, " She is my best friend " .. Steph told her to not mention this to anyone either. This time, she really hoped that it wouldnt be broken and she sighed a digh of relief that her secret could be kept quiet. Boy, was she wrong.

On Valentines day, Steph was in school and couldnt attend church. But she went in the evening, after school for the valentines party. When she arrived, she saw her group of friends talking to each other like a discussion of some sort. Empty, Damatteiru and maknae was there. Then when she got out of the car, Damatteiru was about to go home. She came over to Steph and told her she would murder her when she sees her in school. Steph was confused and curious.

-first person-

Sports Day. Damatteiru told me about the "murder thing". She mentioned my secret. I froze. My first question: "Who told you" . In my head, I was trying to work things out. I couldnt believe my own conclusion. I knew that Uragirimono wouldnt tell anyone else. And Empty was super close with Damatteiru. I didnt wanna believe it. I didnt want to. I broke down. I just couldnt believe it. I couldnt.

I stood up from my sitting place and went to find Damatteiru. I told her: "You go tell the person who told you my secret that because of HER [yes i said HER], I wouldnt trust anyone else in my life" . Then I walked off. In a daze. My eyes hurt. My head hurt. My heart hurt. I wanted solitude there and then. I wanted to be away from everyone. I want to be like that. I do not wanna trust anyone that easily anymore.

---------

From that day onwards, trusting was difficult for me. I didnt mix around like I usually do. I walked alone most of my time in that church. Occasionally putting on a fake smile for those involved. A facade. Im a hypocrite. I didnt like it as much as anyone but that was the only way. The only way to stop people from asking me " Whats wrong? " .. I dont wanna answer them. I just wanted to be left alone.

_sP_

19 March 2010

Riding with sarah early morn. Fine, not early at all, but early enough. Tiring but kinda refreshing in a way. Sweat -.- LOL. I ransacked her phone, as promise. And managed to get out 5 songs :).

1. Havent met you yet -Michael Buble (its catchy.. xD)
2. Alice -Avril Lavigne (from Alice in Wonderland. its alrite)
3. So scik -Ne-yo (I got so sic of this song last time, but decided to take it bck)
4. Come in with the rain -Taylor Swift (OK)
5. Today was a fairytaile -Taylor Swift (its ok la.. i still hvent got used to it)

Then, b4 that.. Prev day, Mayoora came over and we had a jam session with his new guitar and mine... :)justin bieber, baby was usual xD. Nice song though. He bluetooth a song to me too.

6. I can't hate you anymore -Nick Lachey

It sounds kinda familiar, like Ive listened it from a movie or something. Its nice! like it. Gotta say both songs ive heard from him are awesome. Still have not gotten tired of both of 'em yet. LOL.

Well, talking about yesterday.. hahah! went to Jusco for FUN! Nothing better to do with my stinking life. So, we went there to u noe, walk around. Went to eat in Vivo. :) Then, perfect timing. Onii go wash hands. Mom went to talk to the waitress. Mika merajuk. Saw YGT walked passed with a girl. He was wearin black. LOl.. I ducked my head and covered my face with my hair. Long hair are good for spying hehe.. xD. How do I feel about it? Um, I cant say i'm happie. nOr can I say Im jealous. In the first place, did i even like him? Cant say I do. Nandemonai.

Back to present time. Which is Yesterdays tomorrow. :) So,i downloaded a few songs :)

7. For your entertainment -Adam Lambert
8. Whataya want from me -Adam Lambert
9. Heaven can wait -We the Kings
10. Life after you -Daughtry

I gotta admit. ADAM LAMBERT IS AN AWESOME HUMAN BEING! I love his songs! Kris Allen may have a nice voice and does nice covers but he just can't beat Adam's awesomeness in song genre choices and tune choice.. :)Im switching from team Allen to team Lambert. :D

So, today nothing much happened la. :) Fine, something happened but not very important la. When go pick up onii from college, Saw him talking to Darwinie and guess who? :) Greek :) he looked so cute with his long hair and everything.. :) I waved at him and Darwinie, mostly him la. LOL.. Im not sure if he saw me waved back.. xD w/e...waving at him.. looking at him took almost all confidence ..xD.. w/e :)

IM CONTENTED TODAY..

_sP_

I hate having moodswings


I hurt everyone who tries to help


Im sorry


:(

She was a stranger, a friend of my brother. She's very close to my brother and cares for him. Soon, we became closer. And we were friends, sisters. We talked and talked, getting to know each other. Then, there was that time I felt low. I didnt feel fine at all. And she knew straight away. She asked me "are you ok?". And told me that she's there for me if I wanted to talk. So, I shared with her and she gave me advice. :) I felt warm. She always finds ways to make me smile. She likes calling me chappy. She calls me beautiful one. She says I should be more positive. We talk to each other like friends. But, she's always will be like a mom to me. Maybe she does that with other people too, maybe she treats them the same way, however it never fails to make me happy, warm, and loved. I just want to let her know, I love her.. :)

-sP-

So, went out to buy CD.. pirated.. heheh.. then as usual, theres that cute guy who works there.. And he was looking cute as usual.. :) Im being stupid rite.. xD.. So, i went an search for Wlan there.. Coz I notice he was using the internet.. Then, one appeared and the name for it was hin lee .. So, is that like his name? LOL.. It could be, or maybe not.. but i'll call him that from now onwards .. LOL :)

-SP-

ps:he noticed me.. xD
pps: Laurie<3- "a girl you'll regret not noticing" hahahha TQ!

My fave dress from Elie Saab!!



Its nice, rite?! rite???!!
:)
I love it! I hope it can be my confirmation dress..
Just maybe White and a jacket... and we're done... :)
YAY!

THATS IT!!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!! :)

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‾sp‾

12/03/2010

Friday.
Last day of School.
A really boring day.
Boy, was I wrong.

Went to skul as usual ...
There was supposed to be the debate thing
But again it was postponed
oh w/e
school was boring...
perhimpunan was boring.
classes was boring.
recess was boring.
maths(the only one tcher who so rajin to come in) was boring..
maths was boring coz the topic itself was like easy..
And surani was like "saya ajar. kamu semua x dengar. nanti x faham topik ni."
or some nonsense la..
Me who wasnt listening at all to what she said..
Answered the questions with ease... LOL
coz it was just effing logical.. xD

Ohya. Shaffiq Siddiq. I know u guys just adore him.
He was being and idiot in class again.
He had the nerve to SAY MY NAME!
I was about to lash out on him, telling him:
"A lower digit iq and a wimpy idiot like him have no rights to even mention my name"
but i decided not to..
Last day of skul..
cut him some slack..
I'll bully him every other day..
Theres always the FB group... JOIn!!
Quadruple "S"

So, went home ady..
And watched Seun duk with mom little wile.
Then wen mom went to pic up onii..
I went to bathe..
taking my sweet time la
Coz washing my hair..
then wen i was done..
I heard the phone ringing..
And ran out to answer it..
Onii ask me to read the msg he sent me
And I read it:
"Soitiris is coming also"
BOOOM!
Soitiris.
Coming.
Here?!.
I'M NOT READY YET!!!!
I went to my room and quickly dressed up and tried to dry my hair..
I heard the car coming in the driveway(?)..
And i was like "DIE"!
Then my hair was somewad dry, i went out of my room to look for a comb..
xD
I hear his voice
wow..
u gotta agree foreigners' voice are always awesome.. :)
After, many in and outs from my room...
I plucked up the courage to go down..

[anne's fault.. im writing long long]

He was wearing red. His hair was long behing him. He was talking to mom. I was like all smiles and trying to hide my laughter in the process. COming down wasnt easy. Then, mom was like "soitiris, meet my daughter, stephanie" and i was like NOO(screaming on the inside. Smiling outside. Walk up to him and he was like nice to meet you. *laugh*. Me: yeah. (very productive sentence). He: whats ur name again? .. me: Oh, Stephanie. He: :) nice to meet you, im soitiris... Me: Nice to meet you..

See what i mean of productive sentences. I feel pretty awesome rite now. Pretty awesome that if Virve had seen me, she would totally knock me in the head. Als would probably murder me for being shy.. xD.. then i went away...to the lappie.. Annie was on.. xD oh yes, the lovely person who made me to write in paragraphs.. :) So, was half chatting with her and half listening to his voice. Then mom like ask him to play the piano. And he wsa like esitatn at first saying he hasnt practise for a long long time. But he ended up on the piano chair anyways... And i went in2 the living room to listen to him play. It was wow. For someone who have no musical background at all cna play better than me, who have musical background + i learn piano.. LOL.

Then after a wile i went back to the computer. Then i type type enter. And he was playing the love song he composed. I fell instantly in love with it, the first time i heard it on onii's phone.. While this was a live show.. :) my heart beat.. :) LOL.. then i sat down on the bed and recorded him on video.. LOL.. shhh. Oh wadever. I hope he dont mind though. He look so happy on the piano. But i started to fell inferior(?), coz he played better than me.

Oh whatever.. Did i mention he's 18.. Which is ANNIE's age! LOL and he's GREEK-Filipino. :) He's taller than me. And just perfect .. LOl.. no hope la.. :P

Everytime he finish a piece he was playing, he'll look up, look at me, smiling. I'll be like smile back.. xD.. Heart beating faster. He was like refusing to get off the piano. It was like wow he say. xD. OHYA! the way he walau wey(orwhatever) is so cute! LOL.. Then, we played for him a song la.."As the deer" onii on the piano and im on the guitar. And me and mom singing.. So, weird.. I wonder wad he thought of my voice... heheheh.. then it was time to leave. His dad would be waiting for him in college and we wouldnt wanna be late. So, we went into the car to send him off. I hate to go out again to close the gate -.- LOL ..

Wen i went out, Soitiris was looking at me smiling.. LOL .. then wen i went in.. they were talking bout hair.. so, im guessing mine? lol.. [after that, mom told me he commented on my hair saying it was really long..LOL] .. Then we dropped him off in the college. He shook hands with us[who shakes hands??... xD] and said bye to us.. one too many time... LOl.. As we were going off , i look back and he was smiling.. He had a great time. I had a great time too.. :)

I'm done!
Finally..
Entering once again..
This is just to get annie irritated.
HOORAY!
:)

from my myspace: i will nvr forget the looks he gave me....the smile he flashed at me... the song he played on the piano... and the comments he said about me... :)

BYEBYE!

_sP_

ps: 2day as in the 13th.. i've watched GOS ep 11 and 12 ady.. YAY! :)

Debate was postponed today..
So, im guessing after hols la rite..
haiya
kacau only la..
People no peace of mind..
oh wadever
just have to wait la
for the time to come..
so, holidays..
this sunday was invited to go jusco la..
but dunno if parents let not...
haiya..
i wish can go la..
but they all ah... haiya
See la..
ppl of 4A and 4B will be there..
So, idk la..
LOL..
HE is gnna be there oso..
Malas to go ady la..
He keep pestering me to teach him guitar oso..
He wanna come over during hols so, i can teach him..
But not ez la..
Im nt the teacher type..
So, it'll be weird..
xD
OH WHATEVS!
gnna go now..
BYEBYE

_sP_

ps: ohya im watching GOS now... hehehehe.. :) ep 10 is out!!! oh no! the anticipation!~

SpM rsults out today..
Tht smart guy got straight A's ..
Awesome la he.
Yann get 10A 1 B
B in chinese
Oh w/e..
Unless chinese essays are gonna get her a job..
Then i'll worry a bout that...
But now its like= crap stupid chinese..becoz of u
I did not get straight A's ---
Most probably going through annie's head... xD
JKJK!
Sooooooo...
today was boring as usual..
Suppose to have debate today but was postponed...
Everyone breathed a sigh of relief... xD
BUT
2moro is the debate..
I die la..
Motion: This house believes that internet does more harm than good
we are the negative la..
So, we're stating the advantages of the internet..
Cools..
LOL.. actually, i was thinkin disadvantages would be cool-er..
But beggars cant be choosers..
And Lots were drawn, so thats that..
Wish me luckfor comp 2moro..
If not, just dig me a grave...
Im gonna die of embarrassment...

_SP_

I got a picture!.... :)



I'm in love with this picture!!!
This is what i call and awesome accident picture...!
I didnt know how i did it..
I just main2 take pic can jadi so nice..!
Notce that my hair looked a bit blueish green...
So, NICE!! <3...

LOL!! Hope you enjoy those 2... xD

Debating in the morning...
First time for me though..
What to do what to do..
Somemore going up against good students from 4A
Grace,Weicheng, Waikent and Sa'adah..
My group are the 4S'
Steph, saddam, syahir and sura... :)
Debate consist of 3 contestants..
So, i wonder who is gonna be the reserve for 4A..
4b most probably is gnna be Sura la..
Coz she doesnt want in the first place oso...
LOL
Motion: This house believes that internet does more harm than good
Actually, i dont mind which side I get..
I just hope everything goes well
And that I dont blank in the middle..
LOL..
That happens alot..
So, woooooosh..
Wish me LUCK!

-SP-

Ps: Update on Love?? --- I'm trying to stop liking the 2 guys i mention in school.. I'm putting that hope ive wasted on them on someone else... NEVILLE LIM !!! <3

My life was empty,
My life was sad,
My life was white,
My life was black.


But when u walk in


My life isnt empty,
My life isnt sad,
My life is filled with colours,
No longer white or black.


-SOme spontaneous thing i thought off when i saw this picture-

Well, this is it..
The day I choose..
*sigh*
You know I cant choose rite..
So, Im just gonna let the chips fall where they may
I'll just try to stop liking bth of 'em la..
One will never know I like him..
The other is still attached.. what its been..
2 years between them bth i gues..
Since the girl was form 2..
They started going out..
ergh -.-
At that time, I never thought I would ever like him..
And cheered her on to be with him..
But now?
I dunno what to do anymore la..
If i continue liking him, its just wrong..
I am not and never gonna be the type that steals..
Fair and square or nothing at all..
Sucks to be me..
Me and my rules should jump off a cliff..
*sigh*


Give up..
Giving up..
Gave up..


I wish it was that easy..
But, it never is..
Fuck life..
what to do la..
Enaf la I guess..
Lets just see what happens after this.
If nothing..
Then NL..
I may end up opening up to you..
Maybe something can happen?

Depressed and Desperate,
Stephanie..

Today is SMKTD's Sports Day!
YAY!!!
-.-
I'm lying.. Im not excited!
:P
I bet it was gnna be BORING!
So, I had to go anyways..
I was actually half-expecting spotcheck at the entrance..
But
Amazingly, None!
Stupid.. If i knew, i would be holding my phone then.. -.-
Oh whatever..
So, aftr wishing them(SARAH,YOUNG,OLT) gd luck for perbarisan
Me and Pei Chi(who wasnt in a good mood..) :'(
due to some problems she had with NSY, went to the camps..
I gotta admit Red team's tent is like wow.. :)
Ghaffur and Adeena's lovely work of course...
Then, aftr that i went off to yellow..
NO HOPE LA!
BET: Satria will lose!
Whateves..
So, theres this Shanisha girl rite..
some form 1 kkd person la..
And she's from chinese skul so she's sble to speak mandarin rite..
But, you seriously shoud hear her speak english
its like total prasan-ness..
I'm not saying that my english is any better
But, seriously?
People don't speak like dat in MALAYSIA
LOLZ!
So, she and Haseen was talking bout..
Well, what do you noe..
Mayoora
Whats up la..
Why so many people like him seyh?
I dont see the point in liking someone who is liked by almost every other indian girl in the damn skul..
HEY
Dont get me wrong..
I'm not jealous or anything..
Seriously I'm not..
But its just weird
If you get what I mean..

Then the perbarisan was going on la..
I only notice a few of 'em la..
St.John, KadetPolis, PanduPuteri, Jaguh, Satria, Wira, KRS, puteriIslam..
I think almost everyone except PBSM and JUARA..
Dont ask me y..
LOL..
Maybe I wasnt paying attention to them la.. xD
So, I notice..
Kadet Polis as usuall was nice la..
BUT
If you notice properly..
The hands werent sync..
The legs were always skipping...
I think they focused more on looking nice than anything else..
Oh whatever..
Then,Satria(yellow) HANCUR!
That wan NO hope LA..
So, no need to talk bout that anymores..
LOL
BET: St.John will win first place for perbarisan..
:)
SO, after all that, acara started ..
With running first..
Since Jeevetha didnt come due to some personal problems, i rather not write..
Sarah had to take over..
So, rush her to the phone to call her mom..
then rush to the front gate to get it..
then rush to the toilet to change..
OOOPS! I meant JASMINE RESTROOM
-.-
Then rush back to the tent..
Then, we went to the infirmary.. XD (TENT)
tcher ridhuan gave sarah her number..
Then we just waited there for Sarah's acara to start..
Then I look towards the middle of the padang..
And saw.. Sallie, _ _ _ _ _ _ there..
I DIDNT NOE THEY HIGH JUMPED!!!!
So, weird..
He dont look like a high jumper though..
But he easily jump over the pole...
:)
Proud seyh
Then suddenly Chew Peng ask us to like clear ourselves from the kem..
So, I went to Lychee and Casey who was on PBSM duty..
So, i just stood there withe them occasionally talking
Occasionally looking
I dunno if he was looking back but i rather not keep my hopes high..
Then, after that Sarah finish ady and came to sit with me...
and the high jumpers took a rest..
Then I saw him walking off to the medic tent..
So, i like grabbed my bag and sarah and I went there after a while..
A while was actually quite long
Coz he wasnt there when We reached there...
Then after that the boys 4x100 started..
And finally I thought Yellow had Hopes!
BUt..
BOOOOOOOOO!
tHanks to that Blaraj guy.. everything slowed..
And thats when i saw HIM
He was running..
Stupid balraj made him run fast but he couldnt catch up..
Stupid balraj
Ok enaf la..
He's alrady stupid as it is...
:P
Notice: Sentences made by me is not aimed to insult anyone

Then he came back to the medics tent.. And i was there with sarah..
I look at him..
And!!
He pulled up his shirt to wipe off his sweat..
And I caught a glimpse of his body..
:D
I quickly look away..
Shy
But I still saw it..
And that scene keeps on repeating in my head..
I gotta say.. he is HOT
HAHAH!
Then I just look at him..:)
Dunno waht happen after that..
I think we went to look for Jayne..
And he went to the middle of the field..
I was looking at him wen i notice ONII...
Then went to see him
while looking at HIM
LOOKING CUTE! xD
STOP IT STEPHANIE!
BAKA-.-
then.. blah blah blah..
Went back to the middle..
Kaeru followed..
And I was just looking at HIM la..
He's so wow..
I was just thinking la..
I dunno y i always fall for the sports type..
I hate sports
Opposite attracts??
We just walked around la..
Saw Chi Kun.. Hazim.. Zexen..
The usuals..
Then aftr that..
Saw HIM jumping..
Im not gonna write anything else..
Or else its gonna be so obvious who HE is..
All I can say is He made me so happie..
And somewha bangga... :)
He came back to the tent..
Sweatily HOT..
And when he was just standing there..
I passed by him.. like super close
super close like if i take a step to my left..
my shoulder would have bumped his...
Which would be awesome..
But no such luck..
I dunno if he had even look at me..
But... haiz..
I would have said Omedetou..
But malu la..
I dunt even noe him that well.. :(
Then i after i sent kaeru off to onii..
I went to line up in YELLOW
And he was there drinking water..
And i was like staring at him..
He caught me.. SHITE..
I didnt dare look ady..
:P
Then saw him walking infront..
I opulled mayz and deela, to catch up
BUt he went to the exact front so no chance wanna sit near him la.
D:

So, it was prize giving ceremony..
St. John WON.. :)
I won the bet..
Kadet got number 2..
Pengakap (miracle) got 3rd..
And PB got 4th..
First time they got 4th..
First time for KP too..LOL
!!COngrats St. JOHN!!
Red team won for tents :)
Bet won again..:)
Satria got last for that..
And for the official score..
Satria Last again.. AWESOME! xD
stupid la..
Juara was first..
Congrats to them and all the winners..

My wishes for today were granted by my imaginary faeries :)
1. I got to see HIM..
2. I kinda had fun..
3. He looked at me a few times..

Thats kinda enaf for me...:)

Ciauz! <3 :)

PS: I didnt see _ _ _ _... Did anyone? xD

Actually, I have not make up my mind..
Between those two
_ _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ _ _
I thought about it
but
I dunno who I really like..
Im beginning to think I didnt like them in the first place
Maybe, I thought _ _ _ _ _ _ wud notice me..
Yes technically he did notice me..
But like .
I donno how to explain la..
I thought he maybe would like me
I must be dreamin la..
How can he like me?
Its just outragous..
And dont get me started on _ _ _ _
Thats another dungu
How much i give him hints..
How much I tried to show him
How much I look at him
He NEVER figure anything out!
Ergh!

Whatever LA!..
Dont wanna talk about it..!
-ME-

im pulling myself away....
every single day...
i still love you, i will say...
ignore me if you may....

-an original: Stpeh-

No..
I'm not sick of love..
xD
Not today though..
We had raptai for sukan today in skul..
Then, we went recess and after i was done..
Around 10am i went walking around waiting to go upstairs
With Najihah..
At first, passed by (_ _ _ _) was sitting with the otr guys of 4B la..
He was like: where u going?
And i was like: merayau satu skola..
xD
hehehe..
he ask me suddenly i duno wy seyh
Then after that..
We just stand in front of 5C waiting..
Then i saw SALLIE..
baka la he..
Im STANLEY to him xD!
At first i didnt notice him sitting beside Sallie..
But then when i look back..
I saw him (_ _ _ _ _ _)
whenever I look at him.. I forget everything..
I ont hear anything
Stupid la I..
What kind of person am I to like 2 guys rite?
Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid..
Haizz...
He looked at me occasionally..
But i dont tink he'll ever like me oso..
So, whatever la..
Then when it was time to go up..
I look at him but he din look at me though...
Haiz tired.. disappointed..
Then b4 going up the flight of stairs facing my classroom..
I waited for him to go..
Once he came up and pass by..
I went up to my class..
And there..
boom
nothing happen aftr that..
Just my usual moody self..
This time it wasnt of a guy..
I was thinking of Pathi(grandma)..
Haiya..
Feel so sad la..
:(

ROMANIZATION

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

niga jitbalbgo ddeonan shimjangi
ajikdo ddwigo issuh
geugutdo neoleul hyanghae

ijeulyeogo amooli nolyukhaebwado
saelowoon saramdeuleun amoori mannabado
gaesok dashi ddo dashi dolaseomyun wae ni senggakman naneunji
an hallae geuman hallae
amoori nae jashineul dallaego ddo dallae bwado
amoo soyoungi ubssuh nae shimjangi gojangna bulyusseo wae

wae ajikdo naneun ilun babo gateun jisheul haneunji
meolilon algetneundae gaseumeun wae ji mamdaelonji
nuleul jabgo nochileul mot hae jigeumdo niga na eh gyuttae
itneun gut gattae ibyuleul mitji mot hae

nogool mannado maeum sok han gotseun yulji mot hago gaesok ni jalil biweonwa
ol liga ubneundae oljido moleundago wae mitneunji gaseumi wae maleul an deutni

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

ijeoya hae ijeoya salsoo issuh
jiweo beolyuh yaman hae an geulyeomyun naega jooguh
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming.
she's gone, gotta be moving on
gassuh ji ana geunyun ni senggak haji ana

geunyuh neun naega gidalineun gul junhyuh moleun chae jal salgo issuh
geunyuh neun imi nal ijussuh wanjunhi jiwussuh wae naneun geuleokae mot hani

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)


TRANSLATIONS

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it's beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don't want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it's no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i'm holding on to you and can't let go.
it still feels like you're next to me.
i can't believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can't open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there's no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn't my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
don't i know that it's over. i don't understand why i'm like this
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don't, i'll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming
she's gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won't come back. she doesn't think of you.

she doesn't know that i'm waiting for her, she's doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can't i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)


credits: crazykyootie @ soompi

I feel sad for him la..
Only now I know about his dad..
When I was reading on his page..
I felt tears dropping..
Its just so sad that his dad could do that to him
Poor N
Haiz..
I cant say anything to him
Sinve we're not as close as we were use to be..
And sincere words that comes out of me who barely knows him..
Its just Idk la..
I dont know anything ady..
Just N must try to forget about his dad la..
He isnt worth it..
He isnt worth N's time to talk about or N's sarcasm..
He is just worthless..
I noe it may be wrong for me to say that about people's dad.
Even though he hate his own dad..
But, judge me.. I dont give a damn..
Thats my opp. and if you care..
Whatever..
But if ur N.. and you know this is about you..
And you dont like it to be posted about..
Pls do inform me and i'll take it down..

-sP-

Well...

As you probably may have noticed, I've changed my blog vids and lyrics..
Now, its So in love with two ..
And I guess its probably true..
I am so in love with two
But idk la
One is form5 and the other form4..
Both are taller than me and both are ......
well...
But:
They wont ever like me back though...
Yes, they look at me occasionally..
Yes they smile at me..
But Like me?
I dont think so...
Oh whatever...
------ and ----
Notice me la...
Haiyo...
whatevs...
Goodnite..!

Every day, I try not to admit it but "I LIKE YOU"

Every hour, I try to hide it but "I NEED YOU"

Every minute, I try to forget it but "I MISS YOU"

Every second, I catch myself whispering "I LOVE YOU"

You said, you wanted to jog but because of the rain, you cant...

However...

Because of the rain, you are here...

:)

-stephh