I hate feeling like this. Nothing taste good. Everything smells bad. Ergh. My tummy hurts. I wanna go home and rub oil on my tummy. I wanna take a nap and wake up feeling better. I want someone to carress my hair while I lie down holding my tummy. I want a hot mug of love. Lol. I'm cracking jokes even though I'm sick right xD haha.

Grrr. I wanna go home :/

Should I give up, OR should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads no where.

Some Harry Potter characters related questions:

Harry Potter: Tell us about a scar on your body

I have many scars on my body; some I don't even know where it came from. I have one scar on my left shoulder. It's about 6.5 centimetres long and almost unnoticeable. Somehow, putting my finger on it and just touching it, makes me calm. Haha, it's weird I know. And anyways, I don't know where it came from. It just suddenly appeared.

Hermione Granger: What is your favorite book, how many times have you read it, and why do you love it?

My favourite book? I would say it is Malory Towers Series. I don't remember when I started reading the series but it stuck with me throughout the years. I love all 6 of the books. It's really awesome. I love the series because Darrell Rivers, the protagonist, I'm sort of like her. Haha! We have an equally crazy temper, our scores are almost the same. Although she's more sporty than me. Anyways, you sort of can relate to every single character. Well, except Gwen Stacy, I guess. Or maybe some can. Those spoiled brats with golden hair thinking they're prettier than everybody else. Grrrrrrr--

Ron Weasley: Something you're afraid of?

Ohmaigawd, I hate cockroaches. They are disgusting little irritating creatures. Yes, I admit that when I see cockroaches, I become exactly like Ron and scream like a girl. xD They're SCARY okay!

Luna Lovegood: One thing that makes you different from everyone else.

I don't stick..? Lol, with one type of people. I mix with everyone, never really staying in one group. I would like to say, I can be everyone's friend, but not everyone can be my friend. Haha. I jokeee :) Yeah, right. But, you don't really find people like me around lol.

Fred Weasley: Can you do any magic tricks? What is the best one you can do? If you can't do any, what's the best one you've seen?

No I can't do any magic tricks. I wish I could XD. The best magic tricks I've seen, most of the one on TV are probably fakes xD But, the one I like the most is David Copperfield. HA! xD

George Weasley: What is the best prank you've ever played on someone?

Hmmm, prank eh? I've played a few here and there but none of it really sticks in a way. So, I never could remember them ahaha! I'm not Gred or Feorge. :)

Neville Longbottom: Tell us an embarrassing story.

HAHA! I've got lots of embarrassing stories. Okaay, the one that is forever in my mind is the time I walked into the boys toilet by mistake. MISTAKE, I tell ya. hahahah. But, oh my gawd, I was so embarrassed lol.

Narcissa Malfoy: Do you have a good relationship with your family? Who are you closest to?

Yes of course I do. HAHAH, I would say I'm close to all of them. I don't have favourites you know. :)

Voldemort: If you were to create a Horcrux(s), what would it be and why?

I wouldn't actually, haha. But, if I had to, I guess it would be a book because it's just so cool how Voldemort made his horcrux a diary. SO COOL :)

Bellatrix Lestrange: Have you ever loved someone who could never love you back?

Don't we all? Aren't we all Lestranges in our own funny way? I used to like this boy. Yes, boy. As in he is younger than me by a year. I first met him, lets call him Jack, when we were in primary school. I was in my last year and he was, as I said, a year younger than me. I was attracted to him. See, I like people with mix blood. :) So, when I was in my 2nd year of Secondary School, he entered and I see him sometimes here and there. But, in my fourth year, I told him how I felt. Well, he started it! He showed stupid mix signals here and there, his friends began acting strangely, how am I to not think otherwise..? Anyways, he told me he loves me. He said, "I.. I.. Love you". Well, BOLLOCKS that is. But, me or idiotic me, believed his lies. Believed his stupid LIES. But, the next year he ignored me. He ignored my whole being. HE IGNORED ME. I was pissed off. Pissed off being only an understatement. But, then later in the year, he said: "I tried to love you, I really did, but I couldn't". Couldn't, my arse. AAAARGH. I was civil about the whole affair. Really civil.

Enough.

Ginny Weasley: Have you ever been in love with an unexpected person?

Yeps. When I was in Secondary two, my classmate had a boyfriend, I called him Mathematics in my fourth year. I went outright and said, "He isn't good looking at all" and I laughed it out. In my fourth year, during a sports practice, I saw him with a friend of mine. He was just staring at me. It was intense. And that's when i fell. Bonkers, I got. We got closer and closer during the end of my fourth year. During my fifth, he was in sixth, we got kind of flirtatious. But, he stopped texting me out of the blue and the next time I saw him, he had a girlfriend. AWESOME. I don't have Ginny's luck, I guess.

Hedwig: If you went to Hogwarts, what kind of pet would you bring? (ex: cat, owl, rat, toad)

Like any normal person, I want an owl. A Screech or maybe a barn :) But, I would want a toad. A yellow and black striped harlequin. I would call him Harley. Hheehe, but toads are scary in a way.

Draco Malfoy: Is it better to be feared or to be loved?

Definitely to be loved. I am always feared by people, alot of people, I realised, have problems of talking or trusting me. It's difficult you know. I want people to love me.

Rubeus Hagrid: What is your favorite mystical creature?

I like Kelpies :) They're really interesting shapeshifter like creatures which is reaally cool :)

Dolores Umbridge: Make a list of rules that your family (or whoever you choose) would have to follow if you made the rules.

I prefer not making the rules. I'm not a tyrant or anything. HAHA!

Lucius Malfoy: What is your most prized possession?

My prized possession would be garnet, caelsah and ilfiare :)

Molly Weasley: What is the proudest moment of your life?

Idk. During my last year of primary school, I guess. ,

Dobby: Who are you most loyal to?

My family, the most, I would say. :)

Sirius Black: Have you ever been accused of doing something you didn't do?

Story of my life, haha. Whenever my younger brother does something wrong, I would be blamed for it. That sucks alot. =.=

Argus Filch: What's the worst job you've ever had?

I've never worked, hahah. So, can't answer this question, can I? xD

Dudley Dursley: How many presents do you usually receive on your birthday?

Not much. Though, I wish I had more. You can take a look at my wishlist, if you want to, you know so you can buy me something. Click on the 3rd BLUE bar. HAHA!

Peter Pettigrew: Are you a leader or a follower?

I'm an advisor. I don't lead and I don't follow.

Cedric Diggory: Have you ever had a near death experience?

Nope, don't think I did.

Albus Dumbledore: What is the greatest obstacle you have ever overcome in your life?

My greatest obstacle is tomorrow. You never know what's gonna hit you until it hits. But think of it this way, when you make it to the next day, you've already conquered your greatest obstacle. HAHA :)

Minerva McGonagall: What is your favourite spell?

My favourite would be, hands-down, Accio. The best spell ever! Haha. It would be rather handy, I would say. Well, wouldn't it? You can just summon whatever you need.

Severus Snape: Are you a trustworthy person?

I would say I am. But, no one really trusts me, you know. Because I'm scary, their words not mine. xD

Remus Lupin: If you transform into any one animal or creature, which one would it be?

I would love to transform into a hawk. Or a panther. :D

Uncle Vernon: What is your favorite day of the week?

WEDNESDAY 'cause I have the less number of classes. hahahahah <3 p="p">


Mad Eye Moody: Who is the bravest person you know?

Everyone but me. xD

Arthur Weasley: What do you think is the best "muggle" invention?

A handphone.

Professor Sprout: What is your favourite class that is offered at Hogwarts?

Transfiguration and Charms! Well, and DADA of course. But, I would love to attend a transfiguration class with Minerva McGonagall.

Nymphadora Tonks: If you could change one thing about your appearance what would it be?

My extra fat. :/

Moaning Myrtle: What is something that always makes you cry?

Thinking of all the almost lovers I've ever had. Cue MUSIC. *plays Almost Lover by A fine Frenzy*

James Potter: Would you risk your life to save someone you truly love?

Yes I definitely would.

Lily Potter: What color eyes do you have?

Brown. But, wouldnt it be cool to have grey eyes? :D

Professor Trelawney: Have you ever dreamt something was going to happen and then it happened?

Nopes, unfortnately.

Mr. Ollivander: What would your wand look like?

It would be a dark-coloured wood, with a handle. And I guess the core would be a unicorn tail.

Lavender Brown: Who is the last person who texted and have you ever had a crush on them?

The last person who texted me is my brother so yeah I don't have a crush on him HAHA xD

Cho Chang: If you were on the Quidditch team, what position would you play?

I would love playing a beater. It would be so awesome hitting bludgers and protecting the seeker. :)

Aunt Petunia: What is your favorite flower?

Baby Breath are the best :)

Woke up in the morning and was supposed to follow dad to a discussion. Well, somehow I need to take reigns right? Maybe not the time yet 'cause he changed his mind and decided that I don't have to follow him anyways. Totally alright with it 'cause I didn't have to iron my long sleeved shirt xD

It's a drag I tell you.

Anyways, after lunch dad came home and we changed to go to Ikea & IPC. Badum badum, we reached :) Dad went to the roof to check on work and me, mom and mikael walked the whole Ikea. It's an awesome place, I tell ya. There's just so much idea for houses for my stories, got some sketches taken and went on my merry way. We then went over to IPC and there was a popular book sale going on.

*Screams on the inside* 

Mika bought two wimpy kid books and I finally got that book I wanted. Okay I've wanted Alot of books but this is differente~. The book is Me and Mr Darcy by Alexandra Potter. I haven't gotten to it but I like her writing style. It really catches attention. Then we went to FAMOUS AMOS :) Lovely, I tell ya. Lovely :) Anyways, cutting the story short. Mika got new games in his PSP and I got new tank tops. we went for dinner in the steamboat place in IPC. OMG I missed the food. So yummy in my tummy

♥ I eaaat goood ♥

So, on the way home as we were driving in an irritating jam, a truck was driving beside us and this guy maybe about 20 years old or above, looked at me and smiled :) It's a little weird and creepy, I admit. But, it's nice. I like people who smile at strangers no matter what. It's a good courtesy and it makes people happy. I don't know what his intention was, whether it was for being polite reasons or because he thought I was cute or something (I wish) but it makes me think to myself: If it was for the latter, I'm actually not ugly. It would be a sort of reassurance, I guess. I am always feeling that I'm not pretty enough or I'm just going to die alone. But, little things like this assures me that maybe, just maybe, even if there are much prettier girls out there, someone would probably think I'm the most prettiest girl of them all. And it's a good thought to think about. I shouldn't be dreading or moaning or being moody. I should wait.

Patiently. 

I had a dream. It was so sudden. Took me by surprise. Now, as I'm trying to remember it, I feel it fading away.

It's just so weird. When I woke up this morning, I had no recollection of it. I didn't think about it nor did it enter my mind. As, I was sitting in front of Garnet, with blogger opened up, it came into my mind. Bits and pieces of the dream. Now, I'm typing this and literally grasping at straws, trying to recall that dream. It was intense in that non scary, non stupid, non sexual way.

It was just intense.

I dreamt of CODE NAME: Hank Vince. Please don't decode it. Seriously, leave it alone. So, I had a dream about him. He told me he liked me. He always did. But he thought I didn't. Well, I do. I really do but I thought you like CODE NAME: Carlyn Stag. So, there I was, in my on world. Just thinking.


Well, forget it. He likes her. I'm nobody I shall just go away right now and hide under my rock.

You're pretty. You're so cool. You're everything a guy would want in a girl. But, you don't understand do you? You are the type of girl who can have any guy she wants. ANY GUY, but, why go for him?

Which is more weird? me, only knowing him for a few weeks and already feeling like this. Or, you, that almost perfect you but never understanding.

 I'm ranting. I don't even understand a single word i'm typing now. =.=

Its 1.21 am.

I'm dead. T__T