FallingIntoTheAbyssOfYourLove

I miss you

2012-02-08T22:28:00.001+08:00

I miss:

-Talking to you
-Seeing your smile
-Blushing at every compliment you give me
-Watching you stare at me
-Smiling along with you
-Having lunch on skype together

Where are you now?

-SKP, for Philippe <3

フィリップ

2011-10-07T09:57:00.002+08:00

すみません、私は日本で話す必要がある。私はあなたが理解することはしたくない。私はあなたといる時、私は助けることが笑顔ができない。

私の笑顔はあなたのためである。

Hahha :p
If only you knew, フィリップ.

Nice to meet you anyways :)

hahhahahaha... A certain song comes to mind.. :P

-Skp

Its best this way..

2011-08-03T20:29:00.002+08:00

I know crap happens. To you, me, everyone. I know you've been through alot. Prolly more than me.

But,

Let me get this into that thick skull of yours.

I AM NOT YOU! I AM NOT AS STRONG AS YOU.! I AM NOT THE TYPE WHO HEALS QUICKLY NOR AM I ABLE TO NOT BE DEPRESSED. STUFF HAPPENS. CRAP HAPPENS. AND I AM AFFECTED BADLY BY ALL THESE! I AM NOT YOU TO PULL MYSELF OUT OF DEPRESSION QUICKLY. I CANT BE STRONG FOR MYSELF. I TRY TOO BUT THE TEARS FALL. THE TEARS WILL ALWAYS FALL AND YOU, I, EVERYONE CAN DO NOTHING BOUT IT.

I guess thats all. Oh wait one more...

AND DONT YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME WELL. CAUSE IF YOU DID, YOU WOULD KNOW, I AM NOT THE KIND WHO WOULD LET STUPID STUFF AFFECT MY STUDIES! AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I AM ALREADY STUDYING LAW!

thank u.
Bye..

I just love them :)

2011-07-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

Aww look at them! :D

My loves, ~~Gred and Forge~~.. :D
I mean, Fred and George

wondering.

2011-07-07T19:28:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of crying.
But why do these tears still flow..

for no reason! =.=

2011-06-06T11:27:00.002+08:00

Why am I overreacting. This is not me. Whats wrong with me?!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I shouldn't be

2011-06-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

Jeez. I'm taking this too seriously.

STEPHANIE! THIS IS JUST A PHASE! DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WORRYING AND THINKING! YOU DO NOT LIKE THIS GUY! IT IS JUST A PHASE YOU ARE GOING THROUGH! BE STRONG AND MOVE ON FORWARD!!

Okay.. I need to breathe.

why..?

2011-05-26T18:47:00.001+08:00

I havent been jealous for a really long time..

It feels weird.

SP

Hisashiburi

2011-05-25T18:12:00.001+08:00

Wow this month is hectic. So much is happening. I cant really write it all..

Just one thing maybe,

Hello again Mathematics.

SP

a mistake..?

2011-05-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

Maybe I shouldn't have written that as my essay..
Brought back memories..
Memories I hate so much..
The reason for my blog URL..
Aaaah!

my heart cant take it

2011-04-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

Few days ago.

We were in the same house.. i sat too close to you for comfort and you smiled at me thinking i was okay..
you sang your heart out..
Unknown to you, while your heart was out prancing around, mine was inside squirming about, much to my discomfort..
i needed to leave but i couldnt. My promise and part of my heart kept me unmoving..
I just sat there and let your voice swim around me, tickling the very senses of my mind.
Playing with my heart.
The songs you sing, the words of all of 'em.. affected me.
I don't know what to do..
People around me wouldnt understand..

Their usual words: 'he is useless' , 'he is just a kid' , 'he isnt someone you should be wasting your time on'
But its becausr of that useless kid that wasted my time, that im feeling the way im feeling..
Theres no other way i can explain it.

Tomorrow..
I'll be seeing him again..
We'll be in the same house..
Im gonna here him sing again..
And my defence will fall once again..

2011-04-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

Talk about being full of yourself..
I almost puke..

Its a good day..

2011-04-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

and I'll keep on.. :)

its not.

2011-04-12T17:54:00.002+08:00

Its not that im afraid to drive, its just.. im afraid i might endanger people beside me..

whats going on?

2011-04-10T14:12:00.001+08:00

I don't know where I'm going and I have no idea what I'm doing..
What's wrong with me..?
D:

can't you understand..?

2011-04-10T11:24:00.001+08:00

If a picture is worth a thousand words, i hope this is enough to express the words my mouth can't speak..

2011-04-09T20:29:00.001+08:00

Am I seeing shadows or was it really you..?

i cant say that i love my day.

2011-04-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

At first i was happy...

Do u know that feeling when people starts asking you for help on a particular subject and the feeling when you kbow the answer for that question..?
I had that feeling.

I'm seriously loving chemistry.. Its just sooo Interesting! I need to learn more...! And today, for the first time.. i did not realise that we exceed time allocated for chem classes.. coz tcher mahani was in a roll.. and everyone was listening well.. even Teacher was happy.. ^^

Anf then I was not anymore...

Do you know the feeling of getting something of a bad news that you know will bring you a huge downfall oneday and you dont know what to do at all..?
I had that feeling.

I got a warning letter from school today.. i have never gotten one before in the 4 years i had veen in this school.. im seriously gonna go crazy soon enough.. i dont wanna get kick out of school.. but yet, i have no idea wht am i suppose to do.. who am i suppose to ask? Blah!

Me,
SKP

2011-04-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

if i had a jar of hearts.. would i be less lonely.. or even more?

Oh yeah!

2011-04-02T09:03:00.001+08:00

The more I study it, the more I'm loving it!

Running.

2011-04-01T20:43:00.003+08:00

What am I afraid off?
Singing?
The Stage?
or..

The criticism?

2011-03-31T20:42:00.004+08:00

Do you know this is where I stand,
Can you see its where I want to be,
I really hope you can understand,
I can only be me.

Don't judge a book just by how it looks,
You can't change who I am at all,
I'm not going to be who you want me to be,
I am.. I am.. Me.

Not gonna listen to you anymore,
Not gonna live up to your expectations,
This flaws, this scars and tears are mine,
Cause if you haven't notice,
I'm happy when I'm Me.
-Original Lyrics by Stephanie Pitchay-

I cant help but act differently than how I really feel.

2011-03-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

Am I hiding behind a mask?
Is my mask hiding everything about me?
Is my mask transparent or solid?
Do people know how I feel?
Do people see my pain?
Do they see my sadness?
Do they understand?

Must they understand?
Must I remove my mask?
Must I show myself to people?

Should I take my mask off?
Should I tell people how I really feel?
Should I be myself?

Would it hurt them?
Would it hurt me?
Would I be better off?
Would it help me in anyway?
Would I feel better or worse?

D':

What am I doing?

2011-03-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

What am I doing..? I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. I ask myself over and over again. "How do I feel?" but I don't have an answer for this. I'm confused. I'm frustrated. I'm everything I should not be. Why am I doing this to myself?
Its like I'm killing myself inside out.

I don't know what to think.
I don't know what to feel.
I don't know what to do.

Abuse, I tell you!

2011-03-29T20:29:00.000+08:00

I <3 you chagi.. xD

i think..

2011-03-10T17:18:00.002+08:00

Went up on stage today. Weird of me, i know. Sarah and I was to conduct the vocab day and so we did. The worst thing was he kept on looking at me and smiling like an idiot. Why is he like this..? Oh c'mon get a clue!! I wanna get over you!! Erghh...
So, i just ignored and i can't believe my luck..! Of all days, my pronounciation had to fail on me..=.= INCONSPICIOUS, i ahate that word..!
So i thought..nvm, ignore him! But our path either keep on crossing or he just loveee to appear wherever i am.. im getting irritated everytime i see him..

I keep on singing 'before he cheats' by carrie underwood.. i think im losing my voice at the same time..

everything changes from now.

2011-03-07T16:10:00.002+08:00

21st May PlanA came early this year. It isn't something im proud of nor am I happy bout it. Its rather heartbreaking actually. The main thing that makes me angry and sad is the fact that he told me he loves me. He said it.. he said.. "I love you.." thats what he told me but what is this..? 'He likes this other girl, he told me himself..', someone told me.. ' he's dancing with this girl for the competition, you know it was rumoured that he liked her right' someone said.. 'eh, he's dancing for the competition, you didnt know..?' Someone asked me. YES I DID NOT. YES THE RUMOUR WAS AROUND. AND YES I KNOW I AM SO STUPID FOR EVEN LIKING HIM. Why is things like this..? Everything is giving me a headache. And did you know being heartbroken can lead to heart failure. I'm heartbroken by all this and its not like those people who just say they're heartbroken without even knowing how it really feels. I knoe. Ive been through it. This is the second time.

Heartbroken= heart aches badly you can feel the unbearable pain, you even feel like dying..

That feeling , ive felt it. Uneasy.

This is what it turned me into. Right now, i feel so stupid. Believing him like that. Thinking that i really did like him.. *sigh* . I guess nothing lasts right..?

Its over.

Keep it up

2011-01-18T21:14:00.003+08:00

Mr. Z keeps on looking at me..

but why doesnt he have the guts to talk to me?!

Though just the thought of him staring at me like that, without me knowing
It warms my heart and makes me happy..

Just maybe.. MAYBE.. I wont go on with "21st May PlanA"

-SKP

don't let me go...

2011-01-10T16:51:00.002+08:00

School start like about a week ago :<

But life feels so empty, its just so different.

New people in my life, everything gone.
Like starting a new life.
Eoteokhae?

Now. I have to put up with his face.
The he who I'm not sure of anymore.

Zexen.

I don't know

2010-12-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

I dreamt about a guy who i don't think i have met. In my head, i wanted it to be Jaswir, but yet i knew it just wasn't him. He looked like Daryl B. but it still didn't click.. who is he? i just need to know.. his name isn't coming into my head either. Its just so weird. I wonder who he is. The feeling I get when I look at him in my dream. It felt so real. The dream felt so real. But I woke up in my room. Something inside me wanted it to be real even though i got in trouble physically.

But, I want it to be real. I want to meet that guy.

The guy who made my heart race.
The guy who made my heart beat harder than it ever did.
The guy who made me wake up with a smile on my face.
The guy who...

is just an illusion in my mind. Maybe I need to wake up from this dream. Sometimes, i just have to face reality. Nothing like this would ever come true to me. Its just a fairytale. I shouldn't.

-SP

gahhh... what am I doing?

2010-11-19T23:20:00.005+08:00

I HAVENT BEEN POSTING! =.=

yes.. Ive been busy..
no.. I'm not lying..

My name is still Stephanie..
I have been confirmed : Kaelyn :)
I am still 16
I'm still in love with mathematics..
its been 9 months since my crush on him..
nothing happened between us..
he treats me better than English does.

I'm done with that..

GOOD LUCK MATHEMATICS AND ALL MY OTHER F5 friends.. :D
I'm PRAYING FOR YOUR SUCCESS! <3

Maths~ :)

Maths is like the colours to my life..

I feel like I cant go on with life if I dont see him..

AAAAAAAAAAAH!

I dont know what to do...

eomma! eotteokhae????!

I feel lost..

FRIENDS ARE DUMB!
they are FAKE!
they are with you only when they need you...

at least thats how i feel about the people around me.. [excluding Annie, Hanies and sura]

They try to avoid you ..
They try so hard not to talk to you..
They pretend they're busy..
They ignore you..
They dont listen to you..
they dont laugh at your jokes..
They look at each other with glances that you just know has to do with you..

AAAAAH! FUCK IT!!!

I hate this...

MATHEMATICS... Not seeing you makes me stress... :'(

I miss you.. how you're doing?
are you thinking of me?
i wish you are...
11.11 pm, my mind was filled with you..

I miss you..

Are you standing at the end of the road..? waiting for me..? could you?

I miss you,
SKP

Mathematics

2010-05-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

I owe you guys a post. And this is it.

Mathematics. I'm not talking about the subject but a person. My code name for people can never get weirder than that :D. Anyways, Maths is a guy. He's form5 this year which is older than me by a year. He's malay. Unfourtunately, i liked him. Fortunately, im over it. I started liking him since January of 2010. Don't ask me why cause I seriously dont wanna answer that. So, i like him for, what..? 3 months.. or so.. and then i found out he likes someone else, and rumours told me that they're together. So, i was thinking of a graceful shutting up on this matter. But, a big mouth seemes to have told him of my feelings. As usual, i ignored everything and now, im over him.

Thats all. Coz im over him, I kinda dont feel right talking or writing bout him.. So, its a whatever thing.

I'm shutting up now.

_sP_

Sixteen!

2010-05-22T22:11:00.005+08:00

Im like finally 16..! Woots... :D A new age. A new everything :D. Time for changes in my life.. aahahahahha! sounds so corny.. Whateves!! xD Would like to say thank you to those who wished me... :D starting from the first one...!!

Auntie Angie
Shoba Augustin
Shira Azmi
Li Pei Chi
Kumaran Rajendran
Reshveni Nathan
Anne Lee (Thanks for RANDOM KOREAN[and annoying me]& the Lovely Purse thingy... xD)
Michelle Natasha
Virve Kuituniemi
Mayzween
Saddam Qhazami
Sarah Chong ( Thanks for the necklace and jar of advice! :D)
Jayne Li
Jayne's friend Wani whos full name slip my mind..=D BELACAN!
Tiviyah
Saris Nadia
Surabhitha Nair
Grace Anne Mak
Nazira Jamil
Nazira Jamil's Cliques
Mayoora Thilakan
Syahir Khadri
Hanis Sofea
Krishna Kumar
Valerie Jane
Cik Muna Nabila
Leong Wei Cheng
Ghaffur Zahari
JJ @ Hitz.fm
Stanis Rozario
Auntie Bridget
Yoga Viknies
Ashley & Zexen (:D)
Mark *Agnello
Ruby Foo
Ginger Yap
Jeremy Chan
Rusydi 愚か
Michelle Chan
Alston Pereira (THANKS ALS!)
Goh Zhi Kun
Nurul Hidayah
Tan Lin
Tan Wen Yan
Nisha Krishnan
Auntie Nina
Azim Rosli
Roselyn Anne
Puah Jia Yi
Farhana Fauzilan
Nur Haziqah
Tan Sze Min
Sherelyn
Arvin Thevan
Kuang Say Ggi
Goh Diwen
Felix Andrew
Ephraem Chai
So Rui Yin
Cyril Ben
Lynn Li
Yasmine
Grace Tan
Bhagya Lakshmi
Qixin Chua (he wished me...lol)
Louisa Helen
Lynette Maria
Harini Arul
Jackie Purcell
Shafiq Sulong (super weirded out)
Jessica Lee
Uncle John Yong
Micki Allison
Auntie Fidelis
Tan Ying Wen
Noor Shazlin
Melvin Shawn D'Silva (Suprising)
Nathelie Yong
Divya Maidhley
Tan Yin Lei
Ashwin
Lithia Santa
Yolander Lopez
Marcus Gabriel (epic fail as a cuzzie but i dont mind xD)
Goh Qing Sheng
Ezazul Firdaus
Vishalny David
Alvin John Michael
Auntie Anna
Adrian Singh (Thanks for the call too! =D)
Tan Ying Sin
Eric Johnston
Chua Pei Shi
Lew Kawai
Uncle Raymond (True.. better Late than Never)

THANK YOU!!

Bye 15..

2010-05-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

Now its the last hours of me being 15 years old.
Wow, time passes quickly.
There goes the days where I worried of PMR.
There goes the days where mood swings were frequent.
There goes the days where I didnt make epic fails in my grammar.
There goes the sweet memory of being 15.
There goes the problems I faced when I was 15.

Goodbye.

Strike one, strike two, strike three... we're out !

2010-04-06T17:00:00.004+08:00

THIS HOUSE BELIEVES THAT IT IS BETTER FOR MOTHERS TO STAY AT HOME

This is the topic that we prepared for the debate today.
Our debate against SMK Pasir Gudang.
All four of us.
ME.
LWC.
JIHA.
GRACE.
...... :D

We gathered together in the teachers' lounge. Teachers' who knew of our comp wished us "luck" and "all the best". So kind :D . After getting ready, we went down for lunch where teacher nonny treated us. No appetite to eat actually but teacher insisted we eat something. So, we did. Drinks: ICE MILO. :D YUMMY!.. hehe. When we were done, we left school for the opposition school. I napped in the car for a while. Grace and WC like totally slept. xD. Jihah couldn't. Worried, i guess. :)

We reached. We walked along the 'laluan' when this guy who was looking at me *prasan*, suddenly asked me which school are we from, so i answered him, SMKtamandaya, here for the debate competition. BLAH BLAH BLAH. Then, he told us to follow him to the hall. And we did. I was like : OMG! . The school is like so freaking BIG!. You can practically GET LOST there! hahahahaha!

So, anyways. Coin throw and we got affirmative and we were leaded towards the quarantine room. :D. So, we sat there and gathered thoughts, gave each other moral support and laughed like madds.xD. Then, it started.

According to my 'buku catatan': diary

Jiha is nervous! obviously.. lol.. Hence, she's speaking too fast. this is so unfair coz its on their homeground. She got POI-ed! so fast! but, BOO YAH! Jihah answered the girl's useless POI like dat! *snap snap* wooots! She didnt reach the 7th bell but, its alright, its ok.. :D

1st negative: Me no likey him. He looks gay. Sissy-fied. AHHAH! not to mention, he is such a suck up, rude-guy, and has a GIRLY voice.. =.=" . He was talking and I was like: WHAT has THAT gotta do with MOTHERS?! ... OMGG! -I'm annoyed!- Grace wasnt' happy that the 7th minute had passed -.- i'm annoyed too! im not gonna blame but, it was clearly whos fault it was. and ... STOP REPEATING!! =.="

Grace turn now.. :D she ok lorh.. BUT! she entertained too many POIs... =.= .. then 2nd negative pulak, ANNOYING-ly prasan!! =.= broken english, cannot pronounce properly, so disgusting le.. =.= "is is BADDER for mothers to stay at home" .*PUKE* .. i think he means... BETTER

Seriously, how much I hate them!.. they got a lot of statistics, and pusing belit everything to make us seem wrong! =.= .. If we lose, im not surprised. if we win, tq.
STOP CLAPPING FOR GOODNESS SAKE! =.=

OVERALL, to me, Our school has much better DISCIPLINE than SMK PASIR GUDANG.

ahaha

thats all i gotta say.
As you may guessed, we lost this time.
So, BACK TO CLASS!
yessss!!! <3

ME,

_sP_

Whole Day Whole Pain Oh my poor Head!

2010-04-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

Today our whole day was spent in the bilik guru.. =D why, you may ask.. Coz tomorrow is our debate comp in SMK pasir gudang.. LOL!! <3333 So bored la.. nothing to do inside there.. =.= im not comfortable with this .. so i just sit down there and helped them out as much as i could la.. xD .. I tried finding Maths.. but, its just so difficult to see him... :( .. wondering whos maths? I'll dedicate a post for him telling you bout HIM :D .. Oh, and did you noe, someone is annoying me.. Everytime, pass by , he'll be like "Stephanie" or like "oi" and his friends are like "Stephanie, ***** suke u.." .. And in my head it would be like "Omg.. SHUT THE F*** Up lAA.."

hhahahhahah!

Whis us luck for 2moro!! <333..

You stinking whack Job! =D

2010-04-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

It was a lovely and calm sunday.
AND I HAD TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!
-.-

Anyways, I had to go coz there were getting ready for Debate. They included Grace, Jiha, Wei Cheng and me as the stinking reserve. hehe! So, I went around the time stated above, against my free will! My free will, I tell you! xD joking! Then, they were already there.. I made up with Jiha coz the prev day or so, we fought. lol.. stupid la. 2indianteacherproblemirathernottalkaboutcozscaredtheyfindout. XD! Then, we discussed and wrote our points and such. Then, when waiting to go home, we took whacky pictures.. ahahahahah! its all over facebook.. Go see ! Go see! In my photos.. Wish us gd luck... xD!

:D Leadership Course :D

2010-04-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

We had a leadership course at Sunway College for all the Class monitor and Asst. monitor, Chairperson, Vice Chairperson and secretary of unit beruniform, clubs and associations. :D. I'm V.Chair of ELS so, I had to go.. xD .. So, early morning woke up and was msg-ing Mayo.. Apparently he was like : "Why are you up so early?" .. LOL.. Then, at 7:15, went to his house, car-pooling to skul.. :D We were the 2nd trip to Sunway.. First trip was the Monitor and asst. And the upper 6.. I was pretty much alone.. LOL.. I was first out of the bus and went in straight like I own the place.. xD.. Ms. Jessica was there... Nicky's aunty.. She dont recognize me...HAHAH! I'm so unrecognizable.. :D Then we were brought to the MPH [multi-purpose hall] by Mr.EdwardCullenLookALike xD hahahhaha... But, yet again he seem REALLY familiar.. I just can't put my finger on it.. So, when we reach MPH we went in and sat down on the floor. Then, this guy ROGER or whatever passed around bags.. Inside was a booklet(?) and enquiry form.. :D xD

Then, Ms Jessica took the mic and was greeting us and all the blah blah blah.. and told us to fill up the forms.. LOL.. done ady! <3.. Then she asked us to put ALL our stuff away and we did.. Then she separated us into 13 groups boys girls MIX.. :D And we had to find our group as soon as we can.. :)I was with Shira :D!! yay! Then we had to create a group cheer, name and such.. ours was "independent" wich was pretty much BORING! xD Then we had a few activities..

Ohya, when we sat back down after preparing our ra-ra.. I saw a familiar face infront of the laptop... it was Vijay! I was like stare.. hahhaha.. but he din notice me yet.. xD// .. then, it was our turn to go up la.. And i was like have to pass by him.. So, wehn i did, i looked at him and he look back =D he was like "omg, what is she doing here/" xD and i just smile back.. :) i think we did a slight nod wave.. not sure.. xD

mayoora reminded me who mr. edwardcullenlookalike looks like... GABE BONDOC!! xD... they got the same features. :) ahhahahaha! but it isnt him.. xD LOL.. anyways, overall.. it was alright.. I kinda enjoyed myself but it was tiring :D ..
Lazy to write
What happened
Think for yourself la
hahah
BYE

_sP_

JUNG MIN OPPA

2010-04-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA 생일축하합니다 PARK JUNG MIN !!!!
:D

Park Jung Min
He is 23 years old today..(3/4/87) :D
He is from Seoul, South Korea.
One of the singers of the famous K-pop boyband SS501
He is one sexy hottie :D
His voice is deep and ... :D
SEXXY!! <3

awwwww... his smile... :D!!
I got one more picture to share...
He looks so cute in this one.. to me though...
XD

:D well, thats all for now... xD!!

SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA JUNG MIN OPPA :)!

_sP_

hin lee

2010-04-01T06:50:00.000+08:00

So, I was walking into the shop on tuesday I THINK.. Then, mom was like shouting from the back asking the lady whether the disc had arrived yet. Then, they were talking and I was taking my sweet time to walk slowly behind.. And When I came into view of him, I saw him looking back at me. LOL. When he saw me, he look back in front. I wonder what he was thinking about. A few times, I caught him looking back at me. :D. So cuteeeee. BUT. So olddddd. I think mid twenties. LOL. whatever, not like I would ever date him right. xD!

_sP_

ps: YAYAYYAYAY!! HE WAS LOOKING!!!!!

My friend [happy birthday]

2010-04-01T06:22:00.000+08:00

This is my awesome bestest best guy friend in the whole galaxy.
His name is Syahir Khadri.
I call him Syahiro.
We have been friends for 7 years straight.
I don't remember fighting even once with him.
Today is his birthday.
And I'm not April Fooling you.
Believe me when I say I love him.
As a friend.
I would just like to add:
Without him, I wouldnt have been this happy.
Without him, I would stay in solitude.
Without him, I would have been alone alot.
Without him, I wouldnt have a best guy friend.
So, Happy Birthday Syahiro.
Thank you for being born.
:D.

_sP_

Victorious...!

2010-03-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

Today was our debate competition... :D .. arent you excited?! xD Well, I wasnt. I was super nervous. Tummy was aching from last night. So, when I woke up today, the first thing i did was a SUM41 marathon. Going through all their songs in my phone. It somehow calms my nerves, coz I wasnt thinking of the debate at all. LOL.

Went to skul like normal la. After class, straight had discussion/practice at the library.. :D. Missed class as usual... -.- bUT lol.. whatever la...! xD.. And we were like mad there... Stummie Ache..!

Then it was time... And I noticed that mout austin had arrived... XD! I saw Mark. I laughed.. xD.. Dont ask me y.. Coz IDK.. SKIPPING!!

Then Draw Lots.. Mark drew the first lot.. And he got NEGATIVE which means we're AFFIRMATIVE!! :D!! yay yay! ... im excited got affirmative.. But Grace wanted Negative. W/e la! Then we entered the quarantine room.:D.. We took the one with the stage.. they took the other.. xD While we were in the QR, I was doing my evil thing.. I was peeping.. :) I know I know its wrong but I'm only human.. xD

The 1st speaker, Syafiq or shafiq or WHATEVER was looking blur.. hahaha! he was like staring aimlessly away, occasionally looking up at the reserve and at Mark.. hahah! I caught him YAWNING a few times and laughed hard at it..! I would roll on the floor and Laugh but it would have attract too much attention.. LOL! I mean... ROFL! xD..

2nd speaker was Mark Lee WR of course.. xD.. Well, what can I say of my observation of him.. Um, he was .. well, relaxed.. xD! He wasnt fretting, looking blur or panicky.. Could it be his poker face? or is he too confident? who knows? xD!

3rd speaker hehmaa.. LOl.. she was like Grace .. checking and writing and adding onto her palm cards.. :D lol, i'll repeat myself.. xD

reserved Jaqueline or w/e was lying down.. :D! i was following her and doing the same.. xD..

I helped out with Najihah oso OK! .. LOL... Anyways,when 1hour was gone, we were to make our way to the hall.. I was worrying for them u noe.. xD.. nothing bttr to do with my life ya know.. xD then, as Grace and jiha entered, saw this guy la.. I thought he was cute, then when i realised he reminded me of DLF, i lost my interest.. weird-how much i can hate one being... hahahahah!

Then, I took my seat behind Shira and her friends.. Tchr Sariyah sat beside me.. When, everyone had entered and the judges were ready, the debate started.. Nicole was the Chairperson again and Ghaffs was the Mr. Time Keeper.. LOL! :D

I would not write what exactly happened, and what my thought was.. LOL.. too sensetive... xD!! All was written down in my 'buku catatan' :D .. ANyways... when, the whole thing was done, the judges wen off to the Dewan to debate each other on who should win.. xD .. and we started sociallizing lorh.. xD

I went up to Hehmaa and I was like : you're Laliitha's sister rite?
And she : Ya! how do you know?!
Then, told her story... xD Then, we just chated la for a bit. The Daryl looking guy was occasionally looking,... ISH! stupid daryl looking guy! xD Ahmad Faiz his name... :D hahahaahahahah! Im such a stalker arent I? xD

Anyways, when the judges came back.. :D they gave their comments and announced out that the winner is :

AFFIRMATIVE :D = US!!

heheh! Grace won best speaker! Mark was like black... xD if you GAD what i mean.. xD!! :D was a happie day then.. really HAPPIE!!!

ANYWAYS! I'm super LAZY to write .. GDBYE

_sP_

Poem i wrote long time ago..

2010-03-27T17:28:00.001+08:00

I still love you, even if i dont seem to,
I still miss you, everytime i do wud i do,
I stiil want you, you're all ive been waiting for,
I still need you, more than ever before.

-an original-

_sP_

why "wasbetrayed" ...?

2010-03-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

Theres already a number of people who asked me : "Why is your URL, wasbetrayed..?".. And at first, I had no intention in answering them. I didnt feel like its appropriate for me to tell them. The one who caused this wouldnt like it. Then, I thought back and realised, "Why do I care what she thinks?". So, here I am to tell you who are reading, why my URL is my URL. :). If you dont care to know my story, you can bring your arrow to the big red button with an "X" at the top far right or you could press backspace. Whatever suits you best. To those who are staying to read, I have nothing to say to you.

Though my story is gonna be mostly censored due to stuff, i rather not mention, I hope you guys can understand my situation. This story happened in the early months of 2009. I shall start now.

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Stephanie(me). She was slightly extroverted in church and had lots of super close friends who secrets she shared with. She told them, especially her best buddie since kids(we shall call her, "empty"), most of her secrets and trusted her a lot. This girl, Empty, has a boyfriend(call him "uragirimono" ) . Stephanie trusted him too. He was close with her, helped her when she had problems with her ex-bf, talked to her, and asked advice too. Stephanie didnt think this problem would happen at all.

One day, She told her DLS ((Dark[dirty] Little Secret)) to uragirimono thinking she could trust him with him. She gave him strict orders to NOT MENTION IT TO ANYONE. And he gave his word. He promised he wouldnt tell a soul. Steph breathed a sigh of relief, again trusting and believing him. However, a few weeks or days after that, she received a message from Empty. First, it was a normal conversation. But then, she asked her about it. SHe was like, " Dont get angry with Uragirimono but he told me that ____________ ". And at first Steph was kinda angry but got over it quickly. She thought that Empty should know about it, " She is my best friend " .. Steph told her to not mention this to anyone either. This time, she really hoped that it wouldnt be broken and she sighed a digh of relief that her secret could be kept quiet. Boy, was she wrong.

On Valentines day, Steph was in school and couldnt attend church. But she went in the evening, after school for the valentines party. When she arrived, she saw her group of friends talking to each other like a discussion of some sort. Empty, Damatteiru and maknae was there. Then when she got out of the car, Damatteiru was about to go home. She came over to Steph and told her she would murder her when she sees her in school. Steph was confused and curious.

-first person-

Sports Day. Damatteiru told me about the "murder thing". She mentioned my secret. I froze. My first question: "Who told you" . In my head, I was trying to work things out. I couldnt believe my own conclusion. I knew that Uragirimono wouldnt tell anyone else. And Empty was super close with Damatteiru. I didnt wanna believe it. I didnt want to. I broke down. I just couldnt believe it. I couldnt.

I stood up from my sitting place and went to find Damatteiru. I told her: "You go tell the person who told you my secret that because of HER [yes i said HER], I wouldnt trust anyone else in my life" . Then I walked off. In a daze. My eyes hurt. My head hurt. My heart hurt. I wanted solitude there and then. I wanted to be away from everyone. I want to be like that. I do not wanna trust anyone that easily anymore.

---------

From that day onwards, trusting was difficult for me. I didnt mix around like I usually do. I walked alone most of my time in that church. Occasionally putting on a fake smile for those involved. A facade. Im a hypocrite. I didnt like it as much as anyone but that was the only way. The only way to stop people from asking me " Whats wrong? " .. I dont wanna answer them. I just wanted to be left alone.

_sP_

hooray hoorah

2010-03-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

19 March 2010

Riding with sarah early morn. Fine, not early at all, but early enough. Tiring but kinda refreshing in a way. Sweat -.- LOL. I ransacked her phone, as promise. And managed to get out 5 songs :).

1. Havent met you yet -Michael Buble (its catchy.. xD)
2. Alice -Avril Lavigne (from Alice in Wonderland. its alrite)
3. So scik -Ne-yo (I got so sic of this song last time, but decided to take it bck)
4. Come in with the rain -Taylor Swift (OK)
5. Today was a fairytaile -Taylor Swift (its ok la.. i still hvent got used to it)

Then, b4 that.. Prev day, Mayoora came over and we had a jam session with his new guitar and mine... :)justin bieber, baby was usual xD. Nice song though. He bluetooth a song to me too.

6. I can't hate you anymore -Nick Lachey

It sounds kinda familiar, like Ive listened it from a movie or something. Its nice! like it. Gotta say both songs ive heard from him are awesome. Still have not gotten tired of both of 'em yet. LOL.

Well, talking about yesterday.. hahah! went to Jusco for FUN! Nothing better to do with my stinking life. So, we went there to u noe, walk around. Went to eat in Vivo. :) Then, perfect timing. Onii go wash hands. Mom went to talk to the waitress. Mika merajuk. Saw YGT walked passed with a girl. He was wearin black. LOl.. I ducked my head and covered my face with my hair. Long hair are good for spying hehe.. xD. How do I feel about it? Um, I cant say i'm happie. nOr can I say Im jealous. In the first place, did i even like him? Cant say I do. Nandemonai.

Back to present time. Which is Yesterdays tomorrow. :) So,i downloaded a few songs :)

7. For your entertainment -Adam Lambert
8. Whataya want from me -Adam Lambert
9. Heaven can wait -We the Kings
10. Life after you -Daughtry

I gotta admit. ADAM LAMBERT IS AN AWESOME HUMAN BEING! I love his songs! Kris Allen may have a nice voice and does nice covers but he just can't beat Adam's awesomeness in song genre choices and tune choice.. :)Im switching from team Allen to team Lambert. :D

So, today nothing much happened la. :) Fine, something happened but not very important la. When go pick up onii from college, Saw him talking to Darwinie and guess who? :) Greek :) he looked so cute with his long hair and everything.. :) I waved at him and Darwinie, mostly him la. LOL.. Im not sure if he saw me waved back.. xD w/e...waving at him.. looking at him took almost all confidence ..xD.. w/e :)

IM CONTENTED TODAY..

_sP_

:(

2010-03-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

I hate having moodswings

I hurt everyone who tries to help

Im sorry

:(

the warmth :)

2010-03-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

She was a stranger, a friend of my brother. She's very close to my brother and cares for him. Soon, we became closer. And we were friends, sisters. We talked and talked, getting to know each other. Then, there was that time I felt low. I didnt feel fine at all. And she knew straight away. She asked me "are you ok?". And told me that she's there for me if I wanted to talk. So, I shared with her and she gave me advice. :) I felt warm. She always finds ways to make me smile. She likes calling me chappy. She calls me beautiful one. She says I should be more positive. We talk to each other like friends. But, she's always will be like a mom to me. Maybe she does that with other people too, maybe she treats them the same way, however it never fails to make me happy, warm, and loved. I just want to let her know, I love her.. :)

-sP-

lol

2010-03-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

So, went out to buy CD.. pirated.. heheh.. then as usual, theres that cute guy who works there.. And he was looking cute as usual.. :) Im being stupid rite.. xD.. So, i went an search for Wlan there.. Coz I notice he was using the internet.. Then, one appeared and the name for it was hin lee .. So, is that like his name? LOL.. It could be, or maybe not.. but i'll call him that from now onwards .. LOL :)

-SP-

ps:he noticed me.. xD
pps: Laurie<3- "a girl you'll regret not noticing" hahahha TQ!

Elie Saab, I love you!

2010-03-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

My fave dress from Elie Saab!!

Its nice, rite?! rite???!!
:)
I love it! I hope it can be my confirmation dress..
Just maybe White and a jacket... and we're done... :)
YAY!

Elie Saab is a genius!

2010-03-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

THATS IT!!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!! :)

ǝɥǝɥ ¿dnssɐʍ

2010-03-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

read from right to left :)

(: ˙˙˙ʎɐpoʇ ʎzɐɹɔ ʇıq ʎuıʍ ʎuıʇ ɐ ƃuılǝǝɟ ɯ,ı

˙˙sıɥʇ ǝʞıl ƃuıʇıɹʍ ɟo ǝzɐɹɔ ʎɯ pǝʇɹɐʇs ǝʌı ˙˙ǝʇısqǝʍ sıɥʇ punoɟ ı ǝɔuo

˙˙ɥɐɐɥɥɐɥɐɥɐɥ

(: ¿˙˙ʇı pɐǝɹ noʎ uɐɔ ¡¿ǝʇıɹ pɹıǝʍ ʎllɐǝɹ sʞool

ɥɹol uɐɔ noʎ ǝdoɥ

op oʇ ǝslǝ ƃuıɥʇou ¡¡ƃuıɹoq ˙˙ʎɐpoʇ pǝuǝddɐɥ ɥɔnɯ ƃuıɥʇou

˙˙sı ʇı sɐ ʇı ǝʌɐǝl ll,ı

˙˙ʎpɐ ʇsod oʇ ʎzɐl

d:˙˙˙sʎɐʍʎuɐ noʎ llǝʇ oʇ ƃuıɥʇou sǝɹǝɥʇ

¡ǝʎqǝʎq

˙˙ʎɐpoʇ ʎɐp uʍop ǝpısdn ʎɹǝʌ ɐ ǝʌɐɥ

‾sp‾

kajima.DontGo

2010-03-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

12/03/2010

Friday.
Last day of School.
A really boring day.
Boy, was I wrong.

Went to skul as usual ...
There was supposed to be the debate thing
But again it was postponed
oh w/e
school was boring...
perhimpunan was boring.
classes was boring.
recess was boring.
maths(the only one tcher who so rajin to come in) was boring..
maths was boring coz the topic itself was like easy..
And surani was like "saya ajar. kamu semua x dengar. nanti x faham topik ni."
or some nonsense la..
Me who wasnt listening at all to what she said..
Answered the questions with ease... LOL
coz it was just effing logical.. xD

Ohya. Shaffiq Siddiq. I know u guys just adore him.
He was being and idiot in class again.
He had the nerve to SAY MY NAME!
I was about to lash out on him, telling him:
"A lower digit iq and a wimpy idiot like him have no rights to even mention my name"
but i decided not to..
Last day of skul..
cut him some slack..
I'll bully him every other day..
Theres always the FB group... JOIn!!
Quadruple "S"

So, went home ady..
And watched Seun duk with mom little wile.
Then wen mom went to pic up onii..
I went to bathe..
taking my sweet time la
Coz washing my hair..
then wen i was done..
I heard the phone ringing..
And ran out to answer it..
Onii ask me to read the msg he sent me
And I read it:
"Soitiris is coming also"
BOOOM!
Soitiris.
Coming.
Here?!.
I'M NOT READY YET!!!!
I went to my room and quickly dressed up and tried to dry my hair..
I heard the car coming in the driveway(?)..
And i was like "DIE"!
Then my hair was somewad dry, i went out of my room to look for a comb..
xD
I hear his voice
wow..
u gotta agree foreigners' voice are always awesome.. :)
After, many in and outs from my room...
I plucked up the courage to go down..

[anne's fault.. im writing long long]

He was wearing red. His hair was long behing him. He was talking to mom. I was like all smiles and trying to hide my laughter in the process. COming down wasnt easy. Then, mom was like "soitiris, meet my daughter, stephanie" and i was like NOO(screaming on the inside. Smiling outside. Walk up to him and he was like nice to meet you. *laugh*. Me: yeah. (very productive sentence). He: whats ur name again? .. me: Oh, Stephanie. He: :) nice to meet you, im soitiris... Me: Nice to meet you..

See what i mean of productive sentences. I feel pretty awesome rite now. Pretty awesome that if Virve had seen me, she would totally knock me in the head. Als would probably murder me for being shy.. xD.. then i went away...to the lappie.. Annie was on.. xD oh yes, the lovely person who made me to write in paragraphs.. :) So, was half chatting with her and half listening to his voice. Then mom like ask him to play the piano. And he wsa like esitatn at first saying he hasnt practise for a long long time. But he ended up on the piano chair anyways... And i went in2 the living room to listen to him play. It was wow. For someone who have no musical background at all cna play better than me, who have musical background + i learn piano.. LOL.

Then after a wile i went back to the computer. Then i type type enter. And he was playing the love song he composed. I fell instantly in love with it, the first time i heard it on onii's phone.. While this was a live show.. :) my heart beat.. :) LOL.. then i sat down on the bed and recorded him on video.. LOL.. shhh. Oh wadever. I hope he dont mind though. He look so happy on the piano. But i started to fell inferior(?), coz he played better than me.

Oh whatever.. Did i mention he's 18.. Which is ANNIE's age! LOL and he's GREEK-Filipino. :) He's taller than me. And just perfect .. LOl.. no hope la.. :P

Everytime he finish a piece he was playing, he'll look up, look at me, smiling. I'll be like smile back.. xD.. Heart beating faster. He was like refusing to get off the piano. It was like wow he say. xD. OHYA! the way he walau wey(orwhatever) is so cute! LOL.. Then, we played for him a song la.."As the deer" onii on the piano and im on the guitar. And me and mom singing.. So, weird.. I wonder wad he thought of my voice... heheheh.. then it was time to leave. His dad would be waiting for him in college and we wouldnt wanna be late. So, we went into the car to send him off. I hate to go out again to close the gate -.- LOL ..

Wen i went out, Soitiris was looking at me smiling.. LOL .. then wen i went in.. they were talking bout hair.. so, im guessing mine? lol.. [after that, mom told me he commented on my hair saying it was really long..LOL] .. Then we dropped him off in the college. He shook hands with us[who shakes hands??... xD] and said bye to us.. one too many time... LOl.. As we were going off , i look back and he was smiling.. He had a great time. I had a great time too.. :)

I'm done!
Finally..
Entering once again..
This is just to get annie irritated.
HOORAY!
:)

from my myspace: i will nvr forget the looks he gave me....the smile he flashed at me... the song he played on the piano... and the comments he said about me... :)

BYEBYE!

_sP_

ps: 2day as in the 13th.. i've watched GOS ep 11 and 12 ady.. YAY! :)

GOS

2010-03-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

Debate was postponed today..
So, im guessing after hols la rite..
haiya
kacau only la..
People no peace of mind..
oh wadever
just have to wait la
for the time to come..
so, holidays..
this sunday was invited to go jusco la..
but dunno if parents let not...
haiya..
i wish can go la..
but they all ah... haiya
See la..
ppl of 4A and 4B will be there..
So, idk la..
LOL..
HE is gnna be there oso..
Malas to go ady la..
He keep pestering me to teach him guitar oso..
He wanna come over during hols so, i can teach him..
But not ez la..
Im nt the teacher type..
So, it'll be weird..
xD
OH WHATEVS!
gnna go now..
BYEBYE

_sP_

ps: ohya im watching GOS now... hehehehe.. :) ep 10 is out!!! oh no! the anticipation!~

Falling

2010-03-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

SpM rsults out today..
Tht smart guy got straight A's ..
Awesome la he.
Yann get 10A 1 B
B in chinese
Oh w/e..
Unless chinese essays are gonna get her a job..
Then i'll worry a bout that...
But now its like= crap stupid chinese..becoz of u
I did not get straight A's ---
Most probably going through annie's head... xD
JKJK!
Sooooooo...
today was boring as usual..
Suppose to have debate today but was postponed...
Everyone breathed a sigh of relief... xD
BUT
2moro is the debate..
I die la..
Motion: This house believes that internet does more harm than good
we are the negative la..
So, we're stating the advantages of the internet..
~~Cools..~~
LOL.. actually, i was thinkin disadvantages would be cool-er..
But beggars cant be choosers..
And Lots were drawn, so thats that..
Wish me luckfor comp 2moro..
If not, just dig me a grave...
Im gonna die of embarrassment...

_SP_

2010-03-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

I got a picture!.... :)

I'm in love with this picture!!!
This is what i call and awesome accident picture...!
I didnt know how i did it..
I just main2 take pic can jadi so nice..!
Notce that my hair looked a bit blueish green...
So, NICE!! <3...

LOL!! Hope you enjoy those 2... xD

Wooosh!

2010-03-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

~~Debating in the morning~~...
First time for me though..
What to do what to do..
Somemore going up against good students from 4A
Grace,Weicheng, Waikent and Sa'adah..
My group are the 4S'
Steph, saddam, syahir and sura... :)
Debate consist of 3 contestants..
So, i wonder who is gonna be the reserve for 4A..
4b most probably is gnna be Sura la..
Coz she doesnt want in the first place oso...
LOL
Motion: This house believes that internet does more harm than good
Actually, i dont mind which side I get..
I just hope everything goes well
And that I dont blank in the middle..
LOL..
That happens alot..
So, woooooosh..
Wish me LUCK!

-SP-

Ps: Update on Love?? --- I'm trying to stop liking the 2 guys i mention in school.. I'm putting that hope ive wasted on them on someone else... NEVILLE LIM !!! <3

Sharing the pic..

2010-03-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

My life was empty,
My life was sad,
My life was white,
My life was black.

But when u walk in

My life isnt empty,
My life isnt sad,
My life is filled with colours,
No longer white or black.

-SOme spontaneous thing i thought off when i saw this picture-

Letting the chips fall where they may..

2010-03-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

Well, this is it..
The day I choose..
*sigh*
You know I cant choose rite..
So, Im just gonna let the chips fall where they may
I'll just try to stop liking bth of 'em la..
One will never know I like him..
The other is still attached.. what its been..
2 years between them bth i gues..
Since the girl was form 2..
They started going out..
ergh -.-
At that time, I never thought I would ever like him..
And cheered her on to be with him..
But now?
I dunno what to do anymore la..
If i continue liking him, its just wrong..
I am not and never gonna be the type that steals..
Fair and square or nothing at all..
Sucks to be me..
Me and my rules should jump off a cliff..
*sigh*

Give up..
Giving up..
Gave up..

I wish it was that easy..
But, it never is..
Fuck life..
what to do la..
Enaf la I guess..
Lets just see what happens after this.
If nothing..
Then NL..
I may end up opening up to you..
Maybe something can happen?

Depressed and Desperate,
Stephanie..

Sports Day

2010-03-06T13:10:00.001+08:00

Today is SMKTD's Sports Day!
YAY!!!
-.-
I'm lying.. Im not excited!
:P
I bet it was gnna be BORING!
So, I had to go anyways..
I was actually half-expecting spotcheck at the entrance..
But
Amazingly, None!
Stupid.. If i knew, i would be holding my phone then.. -.-
Oh whatever..
So, aftr wishing them(SARAH,YOUNG,OLT) gd luck for perbarisan
Me and Pei Chi(who wasnt in a good mood..) :'(
due to some problems she had with NSY, went to the camps..
I gotta admit Red team's tent is like wow.. :)
Ghaffur and Adeena's lovely work of course...
Then, aftr that i went off to yellow..
NO HOPE LA!
BET: Satria will lose!
Whateves..
So, theres this Shanisha girl rite..
some form 1 kkd person la..
And she's from chinese skul so she's sble to speak mandarin rite..
But, you seriously shoud hear her speak english
its like total prasan-ness..
I'm not saying that my english is any better
But, seriously?
People don't speak like dat in MALAYSIA
LOLZ!
So, she and Haseen was talking bout..
Well, what do you noe..
Mayoora
Whats up la..
Why so many people like him seyh?
I dont see the point in liking someone who is liked by almost every other indian girl in the damn skul..
HEY
Dont get me wrong..
I'm not jealous or anything..
Seriously I'm not..
But its just weird
If you get what I mean..

Then the perbarisan was going on la..
I only notice a few of 'em la..
St.John, KadetPolis, PanduPuteri, Jaguh, Satria, Wira, KRS, puteriIslam..
I think almost everyone except PBSM and JUARA..
~~Dont ask me y..~~
LOL..
Maybe I wasnt paying attention to them la.. xD
So, I notice..
Kadet Polis as usuall was nice la..
BUT
If you notice properly..
The hands werent sync..
The legs were always skipping...
I think they focused more on looking nice than anything else..
Oh whatever..
Then,Satria(yellow) HANCUR!
That wan NO hope LA..
So, no need to talk bout that anymores..
LOL
BET: St.John will win first place for perbarisan..
:)
SO, after all that, acara started ..
With running first..
Since Jeevetha didnt come due to some personal problems, i rather not write..
Sarah had to take over..
So, rush her to the phone to call her mom..
then rush to the front gate to get it..
then rush to the ~~toilet~~ to change..
OOOPS! I meant JASMINE RESTROOM
-.-
Then rush back to the tent..
Then, we went to the infirmary.. XD (TENT)
tcher ridhuan gave sarah her number..
Then we just waited there for Sarah's acara to start..
Then I look towards the middle of the padang..
And saw.. Sallie, _ _ _ _ _ _ there..
I DIDNT NOE THEY HIGH JUMPED!!!!
So, weird..
He dont look like a high jumper though..
But he easily jump over the pole...
:)
Proud seyh
Then suddenly Chew Peng ask us to like clear ourselves from the kem..
So, I went to Lychee and Casey who was on PBSM duty..
So, i just stood there withe them occasionally talking
Occasionally looking
I dunno if he was looking back but i rather not keep my hopes high..
Then, after that Sarah finish ady and came to sit with me...
and the high jumpers took a rest..
Then I saw him walking off to the medic tent..
So, i like grabbed my bag and sarah and I went there after a while..
A while was actually quite long
Coz he wasnt there when We reached there...
Then after that the boys 4x100 started..
And finally I thought Yellow had Hopes!
BUt..
BOOOOOOOOO!
tHanks to that Blaraj guy.. everything slowed..
And thats when i saw HIM
He was running..
Stupid balraj made him run fast but he couldnt catch up..
Stupid balraj
Ok enaf la..
He's alrady stupid as it is...
:P
Notice: Sentences made by me is not aimed to insult anyone

Then he came back to the medics tent.. And i was there with sarah..
I look at him..
And!!
He pulled up his shirt to wipe off his sweat..
And I caught a glimpse of his body..
:D
I quickly look away..
Shy
But I still saw it..
And that scene keeps on repeating in my head..
I gotta say.. he is HOT
HAHAH!
Then I just look at him..:)
Dunno waht happen after that..
I think we went to look for Jayne..
And he went to the middle of the field..
I was looking at him wen i notice ONII...
Then went to see him
while looking at HIM
LOOKING CUTE! xD
STOP IT STEPHANIE!
BAKA-.-
then.. blah blah blah..
Went back to the middle..
Kaeru followed..
And I was just looking at HIM la..
He's so wow..
I was just thinking la..
I dunno y i always fall for the sports type..
I hate sports
Opposite attracts??
We just walked around la..
Saw Chi Kun.. Hazim.. Zexen..
The usuals..
Then aftr that..
Saw HIM jumping..
Im not gonna write anything else..
Or else its gonna be so obvious who HE is..
All I can say is He made me so happie..
And somewha bangga... :)
He came back to the tent..
Sweatily HOT..
And when he was just standing there..
I passed by him.. like super close
super close like if i take a step to my left..
my shoulder would have bumped his...
Which would be awesome..
But no such luck..
I dunno if he had even look at me..
But... haiz..
I would have said Omedetou..
But malu la..
I dunt even noe him that well.. :(
Then i after i sent kaeru off to onii..
I went to line up in YELLOW
And he was there drinking water..
And i was like staring at him..
He caught me.. SHITE..
I didnt dare look ady..
:P
Then saw him walking infront..
I opulled mayz and deela, to catch up
BUt he went to the exact front so no chance wanna sit near him la.
D:

So, it was prize giving ceremony..
St. John WON.. :)
I won the bet..
Kadet got number 2..
Pengakap (miracle) got 3rd..
And PB got 4th..
First time they got 4th..
First time for KP too..LOL
!!COngrats St. JOHN!!
Red team won for tents :)
Bet won again..:)
Satria got last for that..
And for the official score..
Satria Last again.. AWESOME! xD
stupid la..
Juara was first..
Congrats to them and all the winners..

My wishes for today were granted by my imaginary faeries :)
1. I got to see HIM..
2. I kinda had fun..
3. He looked at me a few times..

Thats kinda enaf for me...:)

Ciauz! <3 :)

PS: I didnt see _ _ _ _... Did anyone? xD

My mind

2010-03-05T14:48:00.000+08:00

Actually, I have not make up my mind..
Between those two
_ _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ _ _
I thought about it
but
I dunno who I really like..
Im beginning to think I didnt like them in the first place
Maybe, I thought _ _ _ _ _ _ wud notice me..
Yes technically he did notice me..
But like .
I donno how to explain la..
~~I thought he maybe would like me~~
I must be dreamin la..
How can he like me?
Its just outragous..
And dont get me started on _ _ _ _
Thats another dungu
How much i give him hints..
How much I tried to show him
How much I look at him
He NEVER figure anything out!
Ergh!

Whatever LA!..
Dont wanna talk about it..!
-ME-

random

2010-03-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

im pulling myself away....
every single day...
i still love you, i will say...
ignore me if you may....

-an original: Stpeh-

Lovesick..

2010-03-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

No..
I'm not sick of love..
xD
Not today though..
We had raptai for sukan today in skul..
Then, we went recess and after i was done..
Around 10am i went walking around waiting to go upstairs
With Najihah..
At first, passed by (_ _ _ _) was sitting with the otr guys of 4B la..
He was like: where u going?
And i was like: merayau satu skola..
xD
hehehe..
he ask me suddenly i duno wy seyh
Then after that..
We just stand in front of 5C waiting..
Then i saw SALLIE..
baka la he..
Im STANLEY to him xD!
At first i didnt notice him sitting beside Sallie..
But then when i look back..
I saw him (_ _ _ _ _ _)
whenever I look at him.. I forget everything..
I ont hear anything
Stupid la I..
What kind of person am I to like 2 guys rite?
Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid..
Haizz...
He looked at me occasionally..
But i dont tink he'll ever like me oso..
So, whatever la..
Then when it was time to go up..
I look at him but he din look at me though...
Haiz tired.. disappointed..
Then b4 going up the flight of stairs facing my classroom..
I waited for him to go..
Once he came up and pass by..
I went up to my class..
And there..
boom
nothing happen aftr that..
Just my usual moody self..
This time it wasnt of a guy..
I was thinking of Pathi(grandma)..
Haiya..
Feel so sad la..
:(

Can you feel It? ( Heartbeat by 2PM )

2010-03-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

ROMANIZATION

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

niga jitbalbgo ddeonan shimjangi
ajikdo ddwigo issuh
geugutdo neoleul hyanghae

ijeulyeogo amooli nolyukhaebwado
saelowoon saramdeuleun amoori mannabado
gaesok dashi ddo dashi dolaseomyun wae ni senggakman naneunji
an hallae geuman hallae
amoori nae jashineul dallaego ddo dallae bwado
amoo soyoungi ubssuh nae shimjangi gojangna bulyusseo wae

wae ajikdo naneun ilun babo gateun jisheul haneunji
meolilon algetneundae gaseumeun wae ji mamdaelonji
nuleul jabgo nochileul mot hae jigeumdo niga na eh gyuttae
itneun gut gattae ibyuleul mitji mot hae

nogool mannado maeum sok han gotseun yulji mot hago gaesok ni jalil biweonwa
ol liga ubneundae oljido moleundago wae mitneunji gaseumi wae maleul an deutni

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

ijeoya hae ijeoya salsoo issuh
jiweo beolyuh yaman hae an geulyeomyun naega jooguh
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming.
she's gone, gotta be moving on
gassuh ji ana geunyun ni senggak haji ana

geunyuh neun naega gidalineun gul junhyuh moleun chae jal salgo issuh
geunyuh neun imi nal ijussuh wanjunhi jiwussuh wae naneun geuleokae mot hani

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
ggeutnatdaneun gul ajikdo molla wae ileoneunji ihaega an ga
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
nuh eh senggakae ajikdo apa gaseumi ddwilddae mada senggakna

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)

TRANSLATIONS

*Heartbeat*

can you feel my heartbeat

the heart that you stepped all over and left
is still beating. and it's beating for you

no matter how hard i try to forget
no matter how many new people i meet
why do i keep thinking of only you when i turn around
i don't want to do this anymore. i want to stop.
no matter how many times i try and try to stop myself
it's no use. my heart is broken. why

why do i keep doing such foolish things
i know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
i'm holding on to you and can't let go.
it still feels like you're next to me.
i can't believe in farewell

no matter who i meet, i can't open up one part of my heart and i keep your place empty
there's no reason for you come back, but why do i keep thinking that you might come back
why isn't my heart listening

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
don't i know that it's over. i don't understand why i'm like this
listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you
it still hurts thinking of you. i think of you every time my heart beats

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don't, i'll die
stop trying to get her back. she ain't coming
she's gone, gotta be moving on
she left. she won't come back. she doesn't think of you.

she doesn't know that i'm waiting for her, she's doing well
she already forgot about me, totally erased me.
why can't i do that

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you
listen to my heartbeat. it's waiting for you

my heart is beating faster and faster (x4)

credits: crazykyootie @ soompi

NC

2010-03-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

I feel sad for him la..
Only now I know about his dad..
When I was reading on his page..
I felt tears dropping..
Its just so sad that his dad could do that to him
Poor N
Haiz..
I cant say anything to him
Sinve we're not as close as we were use to be..
And sincere words that comes out of me who barely knows him..
Its just Idk la..
I dont know anything ady..
Just N must try to forget about his dad la..
He isnt worth it..
He isnt worth N's time to talk about or N's sarcasm..
He is just worthless..
I noe it may be wrong for me to say that about people's dad.
Even though he hate his own dad..
But, judge me.. I dont give a damn..
Thats my opp. and if you care..
Whatever..
But if ur N.. and you know this is about you..
And you dont like it to be posted about..
Pls do inform me and i'll take it down..

-sP-

New vid new lyrics..

2010-03-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

Well...

As you probably may have noticed, I've changed my blog vids and lyrics..
Now, its So in love with two ..
And I guess its probably true..
I am so in love with two
But idk la
One is form5 and the other form4..
Both are taller than me and both are ......
well...
But:
They wont ever like me back though...
Yes, they look at me occasionally..
Yes they smile at me..
But Like me?
I dont think so...
Oh whatever...
------ and ----
Notice me la...
Haiyo...
whatevs...
Goodnite..!

Every......

2010-03-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

Every day, I try not to admit it but "I LIKE YOU"

Every hour, I try to hide it but "I NEED YOU"

Every minute, I try to forget it but "I MISS YOU"

Every second, I catch myself whispering "I LOVE YOU"

Raining

2010-03-01T18:34:00.000+08:00

You said, you wanted to jog but because of the rain, you cant...

However...

Because of the rain, you are here...

:)

-stephh

My week sucks!

2010-02-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

It really did -.-
Es stupidos
Me dun likey lar
It was exam week, hahahahahaha
And so, Im alone again .. with nothing to hear , but the pouring rain..
Stop them POEMS!
Seriously! @_@ I need to stop.. xD
First day of exams was Bm, Physics and maths..
Bm- ok i guess.. my brain wasnt workin rite, so not sure can get an A or B..
SHOOT!
Physics- Um, alrite la.. Not awesome at all though.. wadevees..!
Maths- Me likey doin maths except the part when i got to the Sets part
That was dumb..!
Since, there wasn't much time..
BAKA..
So, the last page.. i lost like few marks there..
Es stupidos la.. my brain wasnt workin fast enaf .. Shit..

2nd day of zee exams!
I was Bio and Sejarah..
Bio was stupid!...
I mean not the subject.. the paper..
Seriously la..
At least i could answer la.. LOL
Sejarah- BAGERO!
Fuck that paper la..
Seriously!
Tcher say bab 2 comin out only latar belakang..
BUT,
struktur question came out Bab2 ciri ciri...
Stupid!
Lalalalallalalalalalal...
This is waht u shud expect from a malaysian history hater..
xD

3rd day and last of exams!
We had Chemistry, Sivik and Addmaths!
well,
Chemistry was somewaht Awesome... xD
LOL..
I could answer majority of it, i guess...
LOL
and then...
Sivik was like wahtever..
Dun give a damn bout it actually..
Add maths.
Hmph.
Haizz
onii check my answers..
I got 4 out of 7 questions right..
Which is not good enaf..
Stupid careless mistake la..!
If i devide it instead of multiplying it..
I would have gotten the answer and another mark..
But Noooooooooooo!
Baka la..
I hate myself for makin that stupid mistake..
Very annoying...
LALALALALAL!
Whatever!
Dun care ady!
Godie la!
Sleepy!
Need!
To!
Go
byebyebyebyebyebye....... mmuah! :)

Surprises filled in...

2010-02-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

So, well... Today was BORING as usual... It was like attack of the mood changing monster....
I came to skul like happy... but in class like baka only...
Sorry to those I snapped at...(eg. Saddam, Ipin)

Goodbye Fiqa... will miss you...!
Fiqa going MRSM... :(

ok.. moving on...

when going back time, Aiman the f6 guy kacau me... xD..
"tepuk tangan sampai berdarah" he said...
LOL! wen he saw me, he smile and clap hands.. .I senyum back la...
what to do... xD

GreekGuy din come today...
Whatever la...
Shouldnt have hope too much la... haiya

5.00pm...
meeting up with Diwen and the gang..
picked up Yann and went of...

reached Jusco and went in...
saw the gang..
And Diwen was like coming out of Jusco..BAM
A guy was following bhind her.. din really like register in my head who he is..
BUT, he's CUTE..

Then I was like....
Me: Sarah, whos he?
Sarah: Zhen LA!
Me: Really!?!
-Shocked-

The whole time I stare at him..
As we walk to find sumthin to eat, I stare... :)
He looked really different..
I was like: "You look different"
And he was like: -SMILE-

Then Heard him talk la..
And his accent was like different!
Me and Sarah was like OMG!
Everything changed... :)

Sarah and I was like: "Say something"
And Zhen would be like: "Say what?"
And we were like: "Wow.. You sound like an american.."

When we reached ElMigos that Mexican restaurant..
We went in ... all 11 of us... :)
Me, Sarah, Diwen, Zhen, OLT, Jingyi, YQR, Grace, Kent, LWC, and that girl.. um, hui xin?
Then we were given the menu..
And me and sarah were like: "Zhen read the menu" ... "First page"
And Zhen was like: "Why must I read?"
And I went: "For fun"
He dun wanna ready ady... xD

Then we ordered our food...
I ordered Cheesy Chicken Chop..
OMG! Triple C... hahaha... CCC will be like : WTH?
hhahahaha!
ANd I ordered Espresso Milkshake..
YUMMY!

After ordering, Me and Sar went to Yamaha..
I needed a new pick..
All my others keep disappearing.. -.-
LOL!
I picked out an awesome pick!
It was like: PICK JESUS!
:) Awesome eh? xD
I payed Rm2.50 for it... I guess its worth it... :)

OTW back to the restaurant, we stopped by this store..
Got like prom dresses in front...
SO, we went in...
And there was this wooly blouse..
And sarah was like: "This is so Young-young"
We thought to buy it for her on her bday.. hahahah
She would murder us for sure...!

Then we went bck to the restaurant..
Wuei Tze and Min Hua was there ady..
We took our seats and waited for our food..

Took LOADS of pics...
Of Deewennn and Zhen..
Did I mention Dee and I are of the same height...? (maybe she's taller! fine! She is! but a few cm only)
and Did I mention Zhen is cuter? LOL..
I'm gnna do a b4 and aftr of him..
Wait fer that...:)

Then we just chated till our food arrived..
mine came first... xD
Very cheesy my food... ^_^
If you get what I mean..
LOL
I waited for the rest to get their food..
A few of them, i mean..
And only then, I started to read...
I mean Eat...
xD

ahem... :)
The espresso was HEAVEN!

Then aftr we ate..
We took loads of pics..
Of Dee, Zhen, Kent, Liting.. and the rest of cors...
pics will be posted in the next post...
most probably.. xD
LOL

after takin pic wit dee
I help Sar take a pic with Zhen...
So cute the way he pose.. :)
xD ...
then I wanted to take a pic with Zhen too!
So, I gave sar my phone and made my way behind zhen..
Then, I notice that the waiterguy was looking at me and he blink or wink?
Shrugged it off..
Must be a trick of the eyes..
Then took the pic with him!..
He leaned on me le... xD
hahahahaha!

My stupid rules wont allow me to like him..!
BAKA!
Nvm..
He's a friends brother..
I'm not allowed to.. according to the rule..
and he's younger... LOL..
Seriously la..

LOL!
Then, after that.. I just stood at the bar thingy la..
Wuei Tze or Min Hua took pics of me..
LOL..
I pose for them lorh.. what to do..
I'm FAMOUS! xD
I gtta say, I do look awesome in the pics... hehe..

Then, I look behind and saw the waiterguy..
Lets call him WG
so, as i was saying, i look back..
and WG was lookin at me again..
Then he like wink...
I being shy and all, just smile and look away la..
LOL..

Then, I walk over to Zhen..
And sat dwn beside him..
Then, I kinda look at WG again..
And he like smile at me..
I smile back look away.. xD
LOL
Talk to zhen..
me: "Aunty Tong"
he: -laugh- You aunty tong..
me: -smile-
I'm the only one who calls him aunty tong.. hehe

Then, they were like wanna go ady la..
So, We went out..
I was the last to go out of the restaurant..
keep on looking back at WG
hoping he would make his move..
LOL
Well, you know me..

But, all he did was look at me only..
Smile ..
Cutsies..
xD
So, whatevs la..
Then, Onii came along with mom and kitto..
And in his hand:
PERCY JACKSON AND THE LAST OLYMPIAN!!!
:)

And then, they went away to JUsco..
So, we went on our way..
Just walkin at first..
And I found myself alone again.. haiz
Sarah walked with Zhen.. I have no idea why.. -.-
LT was with WK..
They're dating.. :)
thats what a little birdie told me la..
LOL..
then the rest was like together..
And me? lost in solitude..
haiz..

Then, as we were going to go into HArris..
I saw Jerry(HFC)
and i was half expecting ephram or cyril to be there..
LOL
coz, i always coincidently meet ephram or cyril in jusco..
LOL..
Again, was being desperate..
LOL..

Alrite..
That paragraph had one to many LOL's ..
xD

Then, I went straight to the CD side..
the JPop Kpop side..
The rest of 'em stopped at the international english side..
-.-
Boring la there..
See the disc there like every-single-time-i've-been-there...
xD
Then, I saw SuJu!!
So Kawaii la they all...:)
Double S cd no more dee...
HAHA.. i dun really care anymore..
They were a phase i guess..
Musicians

Then just look around la..
Then rite,
Saw LIAR GAME 2!
I was like OMG!
i wanna buy i wanna buy i wanna buy i wanna buy i wanna buy!
LOL
Then Zhen and Diwen was like bside me...
I tink got sumone else there, duno..
Den Zhen was like: Is that ? Oh number 2. I watch the first..
ANd i was like: Ya! I watch the first one too! I wann to watch this one..
then zhen: Nice rite?
And I went: YA!
then he: can watch online what..
then me: im dun go online like often so cannot watch la...

Then we went off..
We(including Anne) went off to the Arcades..
She didnt wanna go actually
HAHA!
I force her to follow... :)
So, we went to the arcade and took pics..
We like didnt take a pic earlier..
So had the chance at that time la..
One goin up the escalator(-ter?)
One walkin towards the arcade..
Yeah we walkin while taking...
nice oso..
Feei yann did a like bored face though..
HAHAHAHA!
which she didnt like.. but i love it..
xD

LOL
I'm evil, i noe..
hehehehehehehehehehe :)
We went in2 the arcades ..
Was somewhat pack ..
Okay..
It was somewhat empty..
hahahahah
dunno y
first time for everything rite

Then, Feei Yann was like: Lets play racing..
And I was like: NOH!!
I just detest driving
arcade driving though
its just like wrong
coz its way more difficult, i think
ahaha!
So, we went to the back la..
And the air hockey thingy was rite there
IN the middle...:)
YAY!
First I didnt wanna play..
Then, Annie forced me
So, i played lorr
RM1.00 for 2 token..
I find that expensive..
dunno y...
XD

So, we played
And Yann won
:(
LOL..
And i wanted a rematch!

So, we played again..
Then I think here is where the puck flew off the table..
and went under a game thingy..
We walked away slowly la.. hehe..
Then, the rest of 'em like wanna play..
But only we knew where the puck is..
So, when they called the guy to tell 'em bout the puck not being there...
ME and yann went to retrieve it..
Annie wanted to tell the guy..
BUt i fish it out from under the thingy..
And gav it to them..
sayin: i found it...
xD
evil rite...:)
Ooh I wuv myself... xD

Then aftr that I went to get a drink..
Bought from the cinema..
Then, I still want to play the hockey thing...
At first I played with Annie..
I won!!!
noh! not Jaewon... xD
:)Alan(:
Then, Grace wanted me to play with 'er
HEHE..
So aggressive sial I
I WON again...
As usual.. LOL

Then, we went home..
So, said bye to the rest..
And done lor...
NOthing else..
BLEK..
Tired..
backache..
Sleepy
BYE!

Ddoreureu by Jiyeon (T-ara)

2010-02-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

SOOOOO! this is my latest song craze.. :) Thanks to Alan JW N. ... He sang along to Jiyeon in harmony..more like seconds... and his voice is total WoW-ness... You can check him out at http://www.youtube.com/cityincolors ... Check him out.. and give him 5* ... coz he is AWESOME!... I was not paid to do this... :)

*Ddoreureu / Rolling*

Ddoreureu, nunmuri heulleoganda, ddoreureu, ddoreureureu
sori-obneun apheumeul igijido mot-hanche
phareureu, sonkkeut-chi ddeollyeo-onda, phareureu, phareureureu
ddaseuhaetteon shiganeul gieok-hanabwa

sarangeul hamyeon, deo yeppeojindae
sarangeul hamyeon, jom dallajindae
eotteohke haeya nae an-eh sarangi deo yeppeojil-kkayo
saenggak-eul hamyeon, nunmuri nago
nunmuri namyeon, ddo saenggakmaneul~
geureon sarami gyeot-eh ittdaneunge, dahaeng-ijyo

seureureu, du nuni kamgyeo-onda, seureureu, seureureureu
go-un miso hyanggi-eh ggoom-eul ggoogo shipeot-nabwa
ddoreureu, sarangi heulleoganda, ddoreureu, ddoreureureu
mam-i shiryeo-ulmankheum joha-hanabwa

sarangeul hamyeon, deo yeppeojindae
sarangeul hamyeon, jom dallajindae
eotteohke haeya nae an-eh sarangi deo yeppeojil-kkayo
saenggak-eul hamyeon, nunmuri nago
nunmuri namyeon, ddo saenggakmaneul~
geureon sarami gyeot-eh ittdaneun-geh, dahaeng-ijyo

gaseum-eh chaga-un niga naerimyeon
motbondeushi geujeon useoya haeyo
haengyeo niga dorabolkkabwa hangsang geu jarireul maemdoneun
eori seogeodo haengbokhan sarangi johaseo

sarangeul hamyeon, deo yeppeojindae
sarangeul hamyeon, jom dallajindae
eotteohke haeya nae an-eh sarangi deo yeppeojil-kkayo
saenggak-eul hamyeon, nunmuri nago
nunmuri namyeon, ddo saenggakmaneul~
geureon sarami gyeot-eh ittdaneunge, dahaeng-ijyo

credits: DVenaCava

TRANSLATIONS

*Ddoreureu / Rolling*

Rolling... tears are flowing, rolling, rolling
Like the silent pain hasn't won
Trembling... fingertips are trembling, trembling, trembling
I must be thinking about the happy, warm times

They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It's a relief that I have a person like that by my side

Gently... my eyes are closing, gently, gently
I must have wanted to dream about the scent of that smile
Rolling... love is flowing, rolling, rolling
I must like him to the point where my mind is cold

They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It's a relief that I have a person like that by my side

When you, who is cold, get off my chest,
I have to laugh as if I didn't see anything
"Maybe you'll come back" always repeats at that place
Even though it's foolish because I like a happy love

They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It's a relief that I have a person like that by my side

credits: aejung @ soompi

lalalalala

2009-12-19T22:41:00.001+08:00

I'm STILL SLEEPY!!!!!!

WOOT!!! GOING BACK TO HFC NEX YEAR!!!!

SO EXCITED!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAH! DONT ASK Y...!

lovely post.. :)

2009-12-15T01:46:00.000+08:00

i'm sleepy !!!! <3

nice post dont ya think! xD

Haiya!

2009-12-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

I'm sick, PMSin and confused with my stinkin life...haiz....cough cough from jus now only....and PMS is not helping in any way....STUPId...!!!!! Haiz malas ady la...Idk anymore...I malas to post oso...haiz....BYE!

-.-

2009-12-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Shit la....Ive been soooooooooooooo BORED! -.- damn la...idk what to do at home..listening to mom's nagging me to get off the computer boring dee...xD .. playing on Ilfiare is still ok la... if you dont know...Ilfiare is my guitar!!!! i KNOW! Just bought it a few weeks ago!! <3 Ilfiare + Lydeth <3 a guitar and human relationship... :) LOL!!! xD so, my stories... = i finally done with my character page for Hanae...so awesome...gonna start for JunKi or maybe PrinceSong next...i need inspiration sia...haiz...ohya, a guy came into my life... <3 I love him so much! <3 but ...haiz...idk la...cont this nextime maybe... :P
-Midnight-

hisashiburi!

2009-12-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

Shit sia!!!!!

So long i din come to post...haiya, so bz ady...so, am here to update bout my freakin life! xD

First topic: Holiday

_Hols_ is so freakin boring dis year....no where to go...haiyo...-.- damn sleepy the whole week...hahahahh! mom forcin me to do add maths...malas-er la... -.- w/e la...baka!

2nd topic: Story

_Stories_ my stories not moving sia! sheeeesh! baka desu....i no time to write...haiya...i have to continue la...but i dunno which one to cont...hahahahh xD

3rd topic: Song

_Songs_ so, one day, my cuzzzzzin wrote a song and i asked me to edit it...so i did, then added some notes and bam bam boom.. we got an awesome song.. :) without a bridge though xD

4th topic: Guys

_guys_ they always manage to leave me in a blank...I totally dont understand them...dumb ppl...haiyo...sometimes seems like they like you back...and other times , say lil sister or sumthing...ergh! baka!!!

ok...i wan go sleep now...cya..!

+)-(3 P!<$

2009-06-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

!!PICTURES!!

(SS501)

aww so cuteeee!

Hyung Joon(maknae 'baby'), Young Saeng(the cute one), Jung Min(saranghae), Hyun Joong(my hottie), Kyu Jong(the one to die for)

Hyun Joong(Doll, Yoon Ji Hoo), Kim bum(Potter, Suh Yi Jeong), Kim Joon(Prince, Song Woo Bin), Lee Min Ho(Leader, Gu Jun Pyo)

!!Lee Min H0!!

!!Kim Joon!!

!!Hyun Joong!!

!!Kim Bum!!

OMG! hisashiburi!

2009-05-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

...Its been a long time since i wrote here OMG!....

...cant believe dis...

...ders so many things to say...

...so many thing to tell...

...ok...

...well, theres a korean movie out...

...the name of this drama is Boys Over Flowers...

...And I'm like super crazy bout it...

...One of the actors in this movie is a singer...

...In his own band...

...SS501...

...And they are like HOT...

...Maybe i'll post pics soon...

...okay...

2009-04-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

I close my eyes and I see you're face

I open my eyes and I'm in a daze

Looking at your eyes

staring me down

but

i remember all the lies you said

and I broke away from the spell

and i finally realize something

I realized that

you were never meant for me

and never will be

and

what do i feel?

nothing

coz

i realized something else

I realized that

I had never loved you

anyway

randomm

2009-04-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

I gotta run away

everywhere i turn i see your face

even when my eyes are closed

your image pass through unwillingly

I know you're making me pay

for every little thing I had done to you

but

cant you see

It'll hurt you

more than

It'll hurt me

so, just stop disturbing me

heyhey!

2009-04-19T02:52:00.000+08:00

OMG guyz...seen my new layout...of course you did....lol....wad dya tink bout it....its cute rite....-in a girly kinda way- lol...but its nice la....see see my blog title...!!! I noe im awesome....lol....:P ....and look at the boxes at the right.... i bet u din noe im 15 rite....WOOT! ofcourse i am...and im bored....lol....i kinda miss my old layout and the song on it....it seems nice....lol

ok la....look at the time...

its

2:55 am!!!

almost 3

mum will totally kill me if she knew...

luckily shes sleeping....lol!!

nitez!!

random

2009-03-19T16:54:00.000+08:00

Heyy guyz....

really long time since i wrote here aint it

so, i tot...i shud drop by and say hi...

*freds voice* HI!! *freds voice*

lolz

look at this!! ----v

╔═╦╗╔╦╗╔═╦═╦╦╦╦╗╔═╗

║╚╣║║║╚╣╚╣╔╣╔╣║╚╣═╣

╠╗║╚╝║║╠╗║╚╣║║║║║═╣

╚═╩══╩═╩═╩═╩╝╚╩═╩═╝

aint it cool?

I NOE!!

do u noe how they did it??

coz i dont!

lol.. =D

i found it in YOUTUBE

big fan big fan!

talking bout youtube

theres like so many cool ppl on it doin cool stuff...lol

like FRED..AHHH!!

OHWKAY

sum of u might be blur now, coz i was wen myfren told me bout FRED

--------

FRED is a six year old with really weird voice.

His mom is and alcoholic and his dad is in the state pen(jail).

He talks bout random stuff and is like so cute.

Its u either LOVE him or HATE him.

---------

ok next person is...

*drum roll*

!!!SHANE DAWSON!!!

this guy is so HOT...

he too speaks of random things

and have many characters of himself.

Like his alternate char: Shananay

His vids are a little pervertic and lotsa bad words

but overall his vids are like AWESOME...

and fer the record.....he is HOT

------

next is SHANE DAWSON friend and sumtimez co-star

BRITTANI LOUISE TAYLOR

she's really cool and pretty

speaks of random stuff too

and makes parody of songs

tears her pantz on9 and dance with like a mad person with only a t-shirt on

but overall she is AWESOME too

SHE"S CHRISTIAN!!

!yay!

lol

-----

kkkkkk

gtg

sleepy

da da di dum...

2009-03-06T12:42:00.000+08:00

+so freakin bored+

+havta go to skul later+

+malaser la+

+haven finish my notez yet+

+hehez+

+G2G+

+wanna eat lunch then go skul+

heyy!!

2009-03-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

+so today was a boooooriing daay+

+very very boring+

+went to school as usual+

+librarian duties as usual+

+since its wednesday+

+wear unit t-shirt+

+and went as usual laaa+

+pick up the newspapers as i went up+

+den wrote the teachers name la+

+tsunami wasnt there as usual+

+she dunt do her freakin work anyways+

+i miss cher syikin+

+she much more better and nicer+

+not like dis tsunami+

+aaargh+

+so den dis guy came+

+pembekal buku+

+i tink+

+he mus have knew cher syikin+

+coz he ask bout her +

+den we told him she pindah ady+

+now tsunami take over+

+den he was like OH+

+den tina go call tsunami to come up+

+she say she's bz+

+but she is so not+

+she is freakin tellin grandmothrs story wit the otr tcher+

+so idiotic wann!+

+den she made him wait for 1 freakin hour!!+

+i feel so angry+

+she's such a +

+a+

+HOG+

+aaargh+

+i got the rite mind to jus QUIT+

+but im not dat dumb+

+i'll jus rebel lor+

+ok+

+G2G+

+stupid bro of mine complain to mum+

+I get 6A for nothin la+

+cant even go on9 long2 oso+

+disturbing pigs la+

+kk+

+nite y'all+

YAY!!! yay!!! YAY!!! yay!!!

2009-03-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

#as u can guess

#im so freakin happy rite now

#u noe wad happened?

#I got 6A's for my test!

#yay!!

#but i got one D

#for the freakin KH

#oh cmon

#i dun need it for what i wanna bcome

#but screw KH

#i get to keep my phone

#and my laptop

#so

#i can still type here!

#double yay!

#awww

#its really late now

#gtg skul early 2moro

#ok ok

#i'll try come 2moro

#updating soon

#nitez

#hugz &kisses!

Dammit!

2009-03-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

#damn la!!#

#tcher din giv papers today#

#and i was waiting anxiously#

#damn#

#I want my freakin paper!#

#eff dis#

#tchers dis dayz cant tande fast2#

#freakin stupid cat is meowing outside#

#and its so freakin noisy#

#i wan to sleep ady#

#got freakin klas tambahan 2moro#

#and also tuition#

#damn la#

#like i got freakin time to spare#

#im already bz as it is#

#damn i haven finish GG note#

#die#

#ohwkaaay#

#mum naggin coz i too long on the comp#

#cant even talk to u guyz oso#

#hmph!#

#hate it la#

#kk#

#nite guyz#

#nite galz#

#nite guygalZ#

#nite weird ppl#

#nite effin ppl#

#jus GOODNITE already#

NOOOOO!

2009-03-02T10:48:00.000+08:00

+ OMG +

+ today we're gettin our SJ, KH and SV papers! +

+ and im still not ready for skul! +

+ mum is bothering me! +

+ Im so gonna die! +

+ i hope I get A's!! +

+ I only got 3A's currently! +

+ NO no NO no NO +

+ gtg! +

+ get ready for skul +

+ WOW! LOVE STORY is playin on the radio!!+

+ My KH KK nt yet done yet... +

+ how la now? +

+ "I love you and that all I really noe" +

+ ok ok.... +

+ really gtg now +

+ now +

+ ok... +

+ wish me luck +

= byez =

OMG!

2009-03-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!

!!Look at my layout!!

!!Isnt it like freakin AWESOME!!

!!I noe!!

!!I was like randomly clickin!!

!!tryna find a nice layout!!

!!and I found dis one!!

!!talk a bout AWESOME!!

!!LOL!!

!!Thanx to my dear BFF Anne!!

!!for showin me the link!!

!!yay!!

!!peace Out!!

!!STEPHANIE!!

Thank You!

2009-02-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

So, Im here...writing this post wich im gonna post in a wile and thinkin wad else to write coz i dunno wad to post in this post wich u r reading and wondering wen im gonna shut my trap and post my freakin post wich im still not posting jus to agitate u guyz whoever whos reading this because ima sadist...sue me if im not...so u jus hav to freakin wait for my freakin post coz im freaking pissed off.....

Fine! since u guyz had the liberty to freakin waste ur freakin time to read this freakin things im writing, i will freakin post my post....ok....

BTW

Its a song....

This is the song that made me realize everythin now...and it reflects wad im going through now....jus bout that, i guess....

OMG!!

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Thank You by Simple PLan...!!

---

I thought that I could always count on you,

I thought that nothing could come between us two.

We said as long as we would stick together,

We’d be alright,We’d be ok.

---

But I was stupid

And you broke me down

I’ll never be the same again.

---

So thank you for showing me,

That best friends can not be trusted,

And thank you for lying to me,

Your friendship, the good times we had you can have them back

---

Yeah!

---

I wonder why it always has to hurt,

For every lesson that you have to learn.

I won’t forget what you did to me,

How you showed me things I wish I’d never seen.

---

But I was stupid,

And you broke me down,

I’ll never be the same again.

---

So thank you for showing me,

That best friends can not be trusted,

And thank you for lying to me,

Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

---

When the tables turn again,

You’ll remember me my friend,

You’ll be wishing I was there for you.

I’ll be the one you miss the most,

But you’ll only find my ghost.

As time goes by,

You’ll wonder why, You’re all alone.

---

So thank you for showing me,

That best friends can not be trusted,

And thank you for lying to me,

Your friendship, the good times we had you can have them back.

---

So thank you - for lying to me,

So thank you - for all the times you let me down

So thank you - for lying to me,

So thank you - your friendship you can have it back

ella ella....

2009-02-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Dis post was requested personally by my friend, Goh Diwen......She say I nvr post long long time ady...so i post this post wich im posting which ur reading and wondering wen im gonna stop talking bout this post that im writing....lol.....ok...nitez...gotta study for exam tomorrow...noooo...matz and history....dieeeeee....BYE!!

JMAC....Told u so

2009-02-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

My fav JESSE MCCARTNEY song!!! lolz.....

...Told You So...

Looking at you now I can tell

That you in your new relationship ain't going well.

There's no reason your name should come up on my cell.

Unless your unhappy, but that shouldn't be the case.

Cause you said, said he was the one

baby yes you said,

Said you were in love,

cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

Girl, you know he can't touch like I do,

I don't see you trippin or flippin over his moves.

It don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude.

But you let him back,You don't know what you was on when you said,

Said he was the one, baby yes you said,

Said you were in love, cause...

When you left me you said that you wouldn't be

Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,

Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

If there are hard times it seems,

But you ain't gettin no sympathy,

No baby not from me,

Cause I told you you should never leave.

See you chose this road

So you gotta go it alone

Remember I told you so

.I hate to say it but I told you so,

Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.

Cause he don't do it like me,Or else you wouldn't be

Running back to the past

It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right

Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.

But right now you ain't got me.

Tell me where you're gonna be,Cause I can't take you back,

No, my heart won't let me.

Can't take you back, noo.

LINKIN PARK ROX!!!! yay! yay! yay!

2009-01-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

This is an AWESOME song by LP....Its called Ppr:Kut the reanimation version of Papercut....lolz...can you say 'duh'? ...hehe

Why does it feel like night today?

Something in here's not right today

Why am I so uptight today?

Paranoia's all I got left

I don't know what stressed me first

Or how the pressure was fed / but

but I know just what it feels like

To have a voice in the back of my head

it’s like a face that I hold inside

face that awakes when I close my eyes

face that I watches every time I lie

face that laughs every time I fall(and watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is hearing me / right underneath my skin

It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right...beneath my skin

hey yo

here we go again with the pain I feel that isn’t real. But in my mind

when I find myself in places with names but not faces

my memory races at speedshundred degrees

my soul it bleeds

devil must've planted the seed

now it feels like my backs against the wall, I'm takin the fall

whenever I call nobody's responding at all

but I don’t know who I can trust, they screaming my name

I need somebody to help me out of the flame

all I'm trying to do is just master meall

I wanna do is smoke a blasta beat

but something keeps talking to me consciously, responsiblyit keeps haunting me

from dusk til dawn everyday has something for ya

that voice inside of ya head has got you projecting paranoia.

Cold sweat, shining on your face exposing your purpose

and if I, ripped off your skin I'd probably find a, 'nother person

There’s nothing thing worse than trying to bring yourself up back from the dead

so I advise you listen to that voice in the back of you head

It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my

like I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

(the face inside is right beneath your skin x4)

the sun goes down

I feel the light betray me

the sun goes down

its like I'm paranoid

I feel the light betray me

the sun

(It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin)

It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath

It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my headIt's like

I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

Rooftops by Lost Prophets

2009-01-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

coolio song...thanx to my dearest sister, chelle(michelle T) yay! love this song!! lolz... :)

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make our mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out.

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make our mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out.

[x2]
Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)

Scream your heart out [x3]
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

my fav song....

2009-01-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

Well, this is my 2009 fav song.....wich, well i only started listenin in 2009, so i declared it my favourite....lolz.... heres the lyrics:

this song is called 'Its not Over' by Secondhand Serenade...

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

goodnite and goodbye

2009-01-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

i noe i haven been writing fer a very long time....haiz...too bad...i wont be on fer a very long time now...gotta study fer the lousy PMR.....and the years only beginning.... :( ....haiz....if u need to talk to me....well, you can reach me on my cell....u noe the number rite....?lol....ask sumbody to ask me for it then.....if i dunno u, i maybe wont reply you....so please state ur name.... :) thank you....aaargh...i feel like im a freakin telephone operator....haha....whatever....dammit...i hate skul....well, who wont...we're talking high skul here....High school is jus borin and well, sumXz its fun.... XP!!! ooooohkkaaaayyy......BYEBYE....luv y'all.... mmuuaaahhhh

ps: did i ever mention dat im single ady? lolz...im mus hav left that out....haiz..hiax...believe it or not, i got dumped.....sad rite....i never get dumped b4....its me who does the dumping...lolz....evil... :)

2008-12-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

im so happy im finally back from Sabah....it was like so damn boring wei.....1 week, u noe....i like got sick half way...flu and dry cough.....aaargh...so irritating u noe bein sick and im not even the kind that get sick wan....haiz...baka desu..... :( ..... but now im bttr laa.....blah! spazz!!! haiz.....

I miss Johor wei....wen i was in sabah....lol....kk....

Twilight

2008-11-28T21:17:00.001+08:00

Okay.....so ive just watch Twilight jus now.....and overall, i tink its jus ok....sorry no screaming from me.....i din expect Edward and Bella to be quite boring and Jasper to be like damn zombie.....i tink the only nice part was wen Carlisle entered the hospital.....dat deserves screaming....AHHHHHH!!!!!! YAY!!!

!!! CARLISLE !!!

......and wenever James appeared, AHHHHH!!!! HOTNESS!!!! Even though he bad guy but he's so damn hot!!!!

!!!!!JAMES!!!!!

Den wen Jacob appeared from behind that tree....prom night with his shirt not tucked in and his tie and his hair.....OMG!!!! CUTENESS!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!

!!!!!JACOB!!!!!

and then wen they showed Embry at La Push....AHHHH!!! SO CUTE!!!!

Embry with short hair!!

Embry b4 turnin Werewolf.....!!!

um, should i be happy or sad? hmmmm...

2008-11-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

see laa....wat type of human am i? i wonder....haiz.....i cant get my heart broken...its so damn fragile.....but apparently HE don't understan....AARGH!!! I HATE HIM SO MUCH!!!! um, so im finally single....again....ooooowwwhhhhkkkaaaayyyy...... wud laa.....okay, so now we come to the question/topic of this debate: my head vs my heart vs my feelings !!!

head say sad, heart say happy, feelings is just so damn confused....okay, so its actually like this: I like him, but i dont like him.....i wanna break up wit him but wen the subject comes up, i do not wanna go through it....but we're nt 2gether now....so sad or happy? hmmmmm....die lar like dis....

if i choose sad, I'll be crying.......if i choose happy, i'll be mad......haiz....if i choose confused, well i'll be confused and more like a train wreck than human....SO CONFUSED!!!!

haiz....whatever laaaa!

:)

2008-11-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

yay! i js came back from cameron highlands......and im proud of myself.....

I DIN GET SICK!!! yay!!! :)

I had a great time there....was so awesome...... :)....i met a few friends there.....and the weird thing was i so a guy that looks exactly like AJ...lol.....weird.....but cute.... :)

Then, we bought new jackets...yay! mine got hood!!! love it.... :)

dammit, i dunno wud to write....lol....kk....

!!!GUSSURI OYASUMI!!!

...,Sleep tight,...

i stand corrected...

2008-11-17T11:11:00.000+08:00

Dammit....i have to say:

!!!!I LOVE PAG!!!!

I din expect to like it....It came as a surprise to me....I learned so much there...It was so awesome!! I was so happy to be in the same group with Roderick, Michelle Natasha and ISAAC COOL ASS!!! lol.... :) :) .....and MEL O!!!

I learned so much from my team members and i really shared everything i had to them...I felt better after tellin them wud i felt...I even got closer with the people ther...like Chris, Joachim, Nicolette, Jazreel, Louisa, Eric and a few others.....I felt better getting to know them inside than wud i see from them outside.... I guess the outside wrapping is not very important at all...Its the gift inside which is important.... THANX ANNABEL!!! :P

By gettin to noe everyone inside....I realize Rebecca is actually Awesome....She is not that a B**** as wud ppl like to tell me...I actually like her...She's a great person, I like her.... :D ....Becca, if you're readin this, Iwould like to say that you're so AWESOME and very pretty....lol :) .....

I also realized that one of my closest friend was not wud i tot of her....I thought she is a good friend, who will alwayz stick wit u....but she is so different than wud i tot.....

Overall, I love camp!!!!

RISEMM ALL THE WAY!!!!

hmmmmmm

2008-11-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dammit...i'll be going to PAG camp 2moro....i dun tink i'll like it la wei...got sharing and i hate to share.... =P!!!! ..........letz c lar....i'll post wen im back.... k? :) .....